Looking Back

I am sitting in a hotel room struggling with depression. I feel so horrible about myself and how dysfunctional I am. In trying to get some perspective, I am thinking back on my life and giving myself credit for getting this far. I have either worked or been in school for the past 40-some years. I have a Master's and a law degree from a prestigious university. I am married with two teenage children. I have some money saved for retirement and a nice house. I have a high-paying job (which is the source of my despair), but I wouldn't say that I've had a particularly successful career. I am intelligent and I used to have a good sense of humor. Maybe I'll get that back someday.

I'm not sure why I am writing this. I guess I am trying to reassure myself that I am not a complete failure at life. That I have things to be grateful for. We all have things to be grateful for. And we should all give ourselves credit for making it through each day and doing what has to be done, like getting out of bed, taking a shower, etc.

I hope everyone has a decent day.

I feel like I've been on this planet too long, and I'm out of suggestions as to who or what is or isn't a "failure" - my personal opinion is that no one here is a failure, but many times the System is. I wish I had something profound to say ... What I would prefer to be doing is hibernating I'm sending you positive and peaceful vibes

Thanks, Fuzzy. I appreciate your reply and warm thoughts. I really need them right now. You don't need to say anything profound; there really isn't anything that can be said. It just helps to know that I'm not alone in this struggle.

For me it is possible to have everything and still be depressed. I have a nice home, a husband who loves me good friends who care for me and a gorgeous niece and nephew and still find it hard at times to keep going, even for them.

You're still holding down your job and caring for your family despite your struggles and you're still here.

To achieve all this you must be a strong and determined person. A success by any sensible person's measure, and against the odds too.