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If I were a color, today would be red
Exploding, racing, and tiredless Fearless of anything, never moving fast enough I can fly like the eagle, soaring above ------anything that could hurt me I could do anythng, scared of nothing Running wild, stopping for not anything Seeing what others can not see Feeling free and invincible. Then from nowhere, I would be blue Falling Down ----down Into a swirl of darkness Spinning----swirling ----Bang!!!! So dizzy--I cannot walk Feeling so heavy Like walking through muck and mud Sinking with every step What is happening? Who am I? I look up but I see nothing Just blackness Am I sleeping? Wake up! Help! I am alone--no one anywhere But I'm not scared. It seems I am black Locked away inside a mind Eyes staring at nothing Voices in my head but I'm not scared Never afraid. Grey now forming Fog knida lifting Feeling worthless, what have I done? I am not a person, nothing Going through the motions Doing just the right things Watching every word said Being strong--pretending to live But I'm not scared. Seeping through purple Alone by my choice It feels safe, I can breath I can be who I am I do not have to perform And no one knows or sees this person No pressures to be okay No expectations to meet When I am this way, I deserve no one Or rather no one hast to be around me But I'm not scared. I withdraw within myself as yellow takes over Go within, deep, where it makes sense And no one judges Where feelings are real Understanding exist Me----all of me survives there No one can stop our feelings Where it is permitted to feel Where secrets are safe And no one has to pretend Where fear does not exist. Sometimes it is like a camilion Confused, fitting into everyone's mold Trying hard to make no mistakes Keeping inside so no one knows the craziness Thinking hard before speaking To be strong--brown To be grounded--green To fit so well, no one knows any different If you are okay, then people have done thier jobs Prayers are being answered You are getting better To make it through something hard--orange Bright and strong, not seeing what it really did Always strong--never afraid. Mostly now, I am white Behind a wall that hides me Do not let anyone close, so you will not fail No flaws for anyone to see If a color comes, just paint it white No one will know Double coat it twice Look at no one, say I am fine They knew you could do it It just took time Who can you really trust? Who really cares unless you are fine? My brain begins to fade Come back Be strong But I'm not afraid. Right now, I feel hopelessly adrift In a sea as dark as coal Tired of living Trying hard to get through the night Staring eyes and thoughtless thoughts Of nothing, hoping no one knows Of the prison that is in your mind There resides thoughts and memories The secrets and feelings the colors hide From the world in the light I look out at the cold dark night ----and yearn for hope We are simply alive Sometimes praying aloud Wondering in our heart If there is anyone still up in heaven Who will hear? Praying tomorrow we will be the right color Or no color at all That I will be strong And okay for others Silence---- ----I'm not afraid. purplesecrets |
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I have red swirly hearts to give you. Thanks so much for this post, it's so beautiful and moving! (((((((( purplesecrets ))))))))
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(((((((((((((purplesecrets)))))))))))))) you do not have to hide from me. you dont always have to be strong and unaffraid. i love you, all of you just as you are. pick a color, any color, no color at all, or every color. doesn't matter, i'll still love you. you are a rainbow on my soul!
much love recluse1 |
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((((Fuzzybear))))
Thank you for your continual support. Love you. purplesecrets |
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((((recluse))))
Thank you dear for your words of encouragement. I know you are there and love me unconditionally. I am amased at your strength and your love. Thank you so much. We are walking a path that is so much fuller because of friends and people that really care. I hope I can be to you what you have been to me. Love you so much. purplesecrets |
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My Dear (((((((((((((((((((((((purple)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
What and who you are is all that matters to me. You have never had to be anything but you, in that time, in that space. We are all a mishmash of colors, of feelings, of emotions or lack there of. We all put on masks from time to time and try our best to be what others expect us to be. But I have no expectations of who or what you should be, other than YOU. Whoever you are at any given time is who you are supposed to be. I have seen and heard your colors. I accept each of them as YOU. Working so hard to overcome and find your true self is not an easy journey. I am here for you, holding out my hand at the ready for you to take when you need to. It matters not who reaches out or when, I am a friend to all your colors, no judgements, no expectations. Thank you for sharing my friend. All my love to you! ![]() xoxoxo Jean |
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sabau--
Thank you sabby. I know and believe you more than you know that you are there and accept me for who and what I am. I believe you more than anything and I accept your hand of friendship and love. I am so fortunate that you arre there and I would not trade you for the world. Thank you for your love and support. I love you so much. purplesecrets |
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thanks for sharing it with us!!!!! very beautiful & real!!!
((((((((((purplesecrets))))))))))))))))
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I can calculate the motion of heavenly bodies but not the madness of people. ~ Isaac Newton |
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gostryter--
thank you for your support. purplesecrets |
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Hey hun, I read your poem. It makes me feel the way you felt inside. It was so wunderful...but ...so heart renching. You inspire me so much. try not to put up to many walls ok. lots of love for you.
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I Love the many colors you are each and everyone......
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pma--
thank you for your support. i hope i encourage and inspire you in the right way. i am working on the walls trying to bring them down one brick at a time. somedays the bricks are heavy and stuck, but every brick removed is another step however small it may be. i know you are there, thank you. purplesecrets |
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Tishie--
thank you and i appreciate you. i know you are there and i know you care. purplesecrets |
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