Racing thoughts

Geez I thought I posted this last night but I guess I hit something other than the "continue" button . I was upset to see no replies and then realized that the thread isn't even here .

Anyway, I had lots of anxiety and racing thoughts before beginning treatment for my depression. Mostly stuff I really was anxious about, like work, my dad, etc. The thoughts kept me awake at night, often all through the whole night.

Some of the medications helped a bit but nothing really was helping the depression. At one point I tried Wellbutrin, they suggested that because it boosts energy and I had been having so much fatigue I was in bed most of the day and night, even when I was sleeping well.

The Wellbutrin helped tremendously, but after a while the anxiety was noticably coming back. I asked the doc if the Wellbutrin could be causing the anxiety. He thought so, so he added Celexa to my mix.

That helped, less anxiety and I was sleeping OK at night. At my last doc visit I told him that I finally felt that my depression might have been beginning to lift.

He kept my dose of Wellbutrin the same but he wanted to cut back on the Celexa as he believes that the Wellbutrin is doing most of the work (I also have side effects from the Celexa) so he cut my dose of Celexa in half. I told him I would be in touch if I felt my anxiety coming back.

Well I have had some anxiety but I think it is more related to starting to think about getting back into living if the depression is lifting. So I don't want to change anything yet. The anxiety is not very bad... short spurts usually and I can usually get past it easily and sleep OK.

Ever hear a catchy song on the radio and just can't get it out of your head for a few hours or a few days? The last few weeks that has been happening to me CONSTANTLY and it is really really annoying. It can be any song or piece of music, often the last thing I heard. TV theme songs especially. Last week I was stuck on the theme from Harvey Birdman: Attorney at Law. A few days ago I had the theme from H.R. Puff'n'stuff in there for several days. (YIKES!) It can be anything from a few measures of Beethoven over and over again to an old or new pop song.

But it is there most of the time now, and like anxiety it fills my whole head not allowing any concentration. One song eventually gets replaced by another. A few days ago it dawned on me that this may be a side effect of the Wellbutrin... the Celexa is helping keep the anxiety down but isn't enough to surpress the racing thoughts... and so I have nothing but music in there. I see the doc in another week so I will bring it up (I hope he doesn't laugh at me .

Last night I reported that the current song was "Nobody's on Nobody's Side" from Chess. Today it is "We Are Santa's Elves" (no idea where that came from. Just over the last two minutes it switched back to Chess as I typed that and then back to the Elves when I typed that. I'll let you know what else is going on up there.

I'm thinking of charging a fee and offering up my services as Internet Streaming Silent Radio.


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I have racing thoughts all the time, and such music is such a big part of my life, then I can really relate with the song thing...often it's so annoying, but just an everyday fact of life.
OFten my racing thoughts are suicidal.
Jon

Now it is the theme song from Kimba the White Lion (it came up in chat the other day and I found a website... don't know why it popped into my head today though.)

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Crap, now it is the music from the Six Flags commercial with the old man dancing...

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((((((((((Dave)))))))))))

You are making me laugh. I love that commercial and so does my youngest son who dances right along with the man.

I didn't mean to go off topic here as I know how much the racing thoughts are bothering you. I think it will be a good idea to bring it up with your therapist to work through it if it is bothering you. I did read somewhere one time that when you pick up theme songs/jingles, etc and they stay in your mind, it is just your creative juices flowing and you are using one side of your brain more than the other (I think it's your left side which is the creative side?).

Now I have that song in my mind too .


Heather

Dave,

Talk to your doc about it. I think that it very well could be medication related. It could also be a form of mania (which could be induced by your meds), or just a sign of your recovery - your brain is kicking into a higher gear and having trouble slowing down.

In the mean time, I hope you can get some peace. Maybe you could try to direct the extra brain energy to something you want to do, like watching a movie or reading a book.

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Wendy


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