[Tangerine87]

I'm going through a bad depression. I've always been suicidal but I've finally decided I really don't have the will to live anymore. Although I probably wouldn't attempt suicide, instead maybe just wish that I can somehow become terminal.

I don't have anything to say to my therapist these days because I don't see any hope. I am tired. I am tired of suffering for so many years.

I'm so glad you want to talk about it. If you could change what would you like life to be like? I would be in the mountains in a forest overlooking the ocean or lake.

[PsychNitrous]

I could've written the same thing. I keep wanting to cancel my appointments because I just don't know what my therapist can do for me.

We just have to keep fighting. Someday things will get better, they have to. We weren't always like this, and it doesn't have to last forever

[Tangerine87]

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling this way. I have been struggling all my life.

[ramonajones]

It's been three years for me now. I'm so frightened that it will never get better. I feel like I've lost so much and I'm just watching my life barrel right past me and missing so much joy. It is awful.