[tgwwtl3]

I've been thinking about second chances a lot lately and I had a friend say something about them to me the other day. He said something about me getting a lot of them and this comment confirmed everything I had been thinking. I feel like I have gotten far too many of them as well and I don't deserve any of them. I've always been extremely grateful for them, but also extremely guilty about getting them. I have always felt like I don't deserve them, but I would take them and try to be better. Lately, this hasn't been the case. I have been throwing them away, not because I'm ungrateful but because I feel like taking them is wasting everyone's time and I am even more undeserving than before. I also think that I am trying to sabotage myself or something. I guess I feel like I am trying to push myself over the edge finally or something... Has anyone else felt this way?

[cinnamonstick]

I don't agree with what your friend said. Life is about opportunities. Sometimes there opportunities we aren't ready for, then they present themselves again when we are ready...and sometimes even more than that. There are no limits to chances, I don't think the universe operates that way. You know like J.K Rowling approached 12 major publishing companies to sell Harry Potter. Each of those could be called a "chance", right? She didn't stop after 2.
You deserve the best, don't deprive yourself. You ARE worth it.

[JustJace2u]

Originally Posted by tgwwtl3

I've been thinking about second chances a lot lately and I had a friend say something about them to me the other day. He said something about me getting a lot of them and this comment confirmed everything I had been thinking. I feel like I have gotten far too many of them as well and I don't deserve any of them. I've always been extremely grateful for them, but also extremely guilty about getting them. I have always felt like I don't deserve them, but I would take them and try to be better. Lately, this hasn't been the case. I have been throwing them away, not because I'm ungrateful but because I feel like taking them is wasting everyone's time and I am even more undeserving than before. I also think that I am trying to sabotage myself or something. I guess I feel like I am trying to push myself over the edge finally or something... Has anyone else felt this way?

I know exactly what you mean, it's actually one of the reasons I was contemplating suicide a few weeks ago. There are so many things I don't deserve, but yet I get them anyway.

[tgwwtl3]

Originally Posted by JustJace2u

I know exactly what you mean, it's actually one of the reasons I was contemplating suicide a few weeks ago. There are so many things I don't deserve, but yet I get them anyway.

Can I ask why you think you don't deserve them? I know the feeling all too well.

[tgwwtl3]

Originally Posted by cinnamonstick

I don't agree with what your friend said. Life is about opportunities. Sometimes there opportunities we aren't ready for, then they present themselves again when we are ready...and sometimes even more than that. There are no limits to chances, I don't think the universe operates that way. You know like J.K Rowling approached 12 major publishing companies to sell Harry Potter. Each of those could be called a "chance", right? She didn't stop after 2.
You deserve the best, don't deprive yourself. You ARE worth it.

I know you are right, but I feel like the exception. I feel like that shouldn't apply to me.

[annoyedgrunt84]

I just wish life wasn't linear, like I can see where I f'd it all up now, can I just go back and try again? I guess I'm just saying I can relate to what you're saying in a kind of tangential way.

[Yours_Truly]

I wish I felt like I had second chances. Maybe I've missed them all already. Maybe they're hard to come by when you leave the house as little as possible.