Slipping?

As a whole I have been doing very well lately. However, the last couple of days I seem to feel myself slipping back into anxiety and depression and I don't know why. A conversation with a friend seemed to get me upset. My husband likes to play non-stop news on the television which is mostly politics and it gets on my last nerve. I am having trouble concentrating on things I want to get done. I have to snap out of this before school starts back in the fall. I have an A average in my accounting studies and I want to continue to be successful in this. I got fussed at for making mistakes at work today. I usually don't make many mistakes. I also had a migraine part of the day. I don't understand what is wrong with me. I had a reprieve from depression that darkened two years of my life. I want to continue going forward, not backward.

I did some extra praying today and read my Bible. That does help some. I feel guilty. I should have been more helpful on this site and I should be doing more for others. Maybe I deserve to be depressed? Maybe this is my lot in life? Could hoping for success be too much to ask?

My husband is having changes in his work and I worry a little bit about finances. I have to get it together because I know that long-term I will have to be the household breadwinner.

Sorry for the rant. Just needed to vent. I know everyone else is having more trouble than I. Thanks for listening.

First: No one has more trouble than another because each person is their own and deal with their situations in their own individual manner. You're not a burden here and you sure as hell don't deserve to feel this way. There's nothing to feel guilty about.
Second: Everyone relapses back into their depression; it's so easy to do. I've slipped back into mine plenty. The only difference is the amount of experience I have in knowing how to manage it to get through another bout. It's the same with anxiety. Don't stress yourself too much about the future that could probably happen. Focus on now. You normally do good at work and you didn't do so great today, everyone has those days. Just take it day by day. Learn from those mistakes and keep going. If the conversation made you upset, talk about it with someone you trust and feel safe with. Talk to your husband about how the news being on all of the time isn't helping your situation.
Third: Breathe. You got this and you're going to get through all of this craziness. Something my grandma always told me, "Everything works itself out in the end." Nothing can ever stay all good or all bad, it always falls back to the middle. Same thing for this situation.
I have faith in you.

It's okay to put as much or as little effort into these forums. This is a "should", and "should" can cause a lot of trouble. You may want to do more but you don't have to overextend yourself. Just do what's best for you.

Glad you posted; good to read you have some comfort (your faith, family). You have so much on your plate - I admire that you have done so well despite your depression. This is a good place to reach out, get some support, and rant. For me, it also comes and goes, like the waves; it seems there is usually another one waiting, and each time I hope I've learned enough to make it through with minimal damage.

Take care