Grrrrrrrrrrr trigger

Fuzzybear · 02:29 PM

If I didn't hate, fear and abhor hospitals so much,
If I told the GP "the truth"
No doubt I'd also have been "inpatient" at least once..
(And almost certainly, more than once

)

Instead, I'm just impatient, to be gone

(I try my hardest not to trigger papa bear... He needs lots of quiet time, and I'm just nothing....)

However hard I wish for my wings, it hasn't happened

little turtle · Aug 05, 2016, 03:12 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

If I didn't hate, fear and abhor hospitals so much,
If I told the GP "the truth"
No doubt I'd also have been "inpatient" at least once..
(And almost certainly, more than once

)

Instead, I'm just impatient, to be gone

(I try my hardest not to trigger papa bear... He needs lots of quiet time, and I'm just nothing....)

However hard I wish for my wings, it hasn't happened

what happened fuzzy

Fuzzybear · Aug 05, 2016, 03:17 PM

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Originally Posted by little turtle

what happened fuzzy

I guess the "final straw" was a very scary (medical) diagnosis, which isn't life threatening ...

But I've had this pain all my life, or most of it

The parents were sub optimal, they taught me lessons but not lessons that would be likely to help a child to have a "happy" life... They taught me I'm "never good enough"
And some appalling "therapy" reinforced that toxic schema

For the past 4 years I've been allergic to so many things, including probably my reading glasses... That life has been like an insane carousel, I'm barely hanging on

All the shaming words of the abusers go round and round in my head

And although few, if any, get it, my extreme allergies do make me "useless"

'I hate it

little turtle · Aug 05, 2016, 03:30 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I guess the "final straw" was a very scary (medical) diagnosis, which isn't life threatening ...

But I've had this pain all my life, or most of it

The parents were sub optimal, they taught me lessons but not lessons that would be likely to help a child to have a "happy" life... They taught me I'm "never good enough"
And some appalling "therapy" reinforced that toxic schema

For the past 4 years I've been allergic to so many things, including probably my reading glasses... That life has been like an insane carousel, I'm barely hanging on

All the shaming words of the abusers go round and round in my head

And although few, if any, get it, my extreme allergies do make me "useless"

'I hate it

sounds pretty bad...any ideas that might help you recover...you have something inside that is really really good...

Fuzzybear · Aug 05, 2016, 03:33 PM

Thanks little turtle, I appreciate you

I guess a private t is a possible hope if I can force myself to go and see one... But I'm scared they may turn on me like the mean T did, after more than 4 years

Quote:

Originally Posted by little turtle

sounds pretty bad...any ideas that might help you recover...you have something inside that is really really good...

Rohag · Aug 05, 2016, 03:34 PM

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Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

The parents were sub optimal...

Understatement.

Shaming words that won't be quiet...
Extreme allergies...

Dealing with those demands a coalition that coordinates, doctors who will talk to one another. Where to find them?

In spite of it all, here you are supporting many!

((((((( Fuzzybear! )))))))