[EternityUnleashed]

It seems as though I fall back into depression as soon as I start to feel better...

I'm not sure if I ever get better or if its my brain tricking me into feeling better for a short period of time and then it wears off and I'm stuck back where I was. I don't know what to do anymore, its just exhausting.

[Deeplyhurt77]

I feel the same. But was told that a couple of good days do sent mean that you are healed. I was told by a couple of people that I was in denial(may say I'm better but my actions and expression have not change). I've told my therapist this and in the same sentence start weeping. So it's hard to tell when medicines work.

[Lost_in_the_woods]

(((HUGS)))
I feel ur pain. my "episodes" of depression last for yrs w/o much of any relief Atm...I am close to my baseline (being like subbasement level for me)..than I have been in over idk at least 6yrs??..
It's terrible having unrelenting depression..even worse bc the general population view of depression is that it's "common", something everyone struggles with at some point...and there seems to be such a bad misconception- that if you have depression, you can just go to the doc and get some ADs and talk to a therapist and within a couple of months be right back to regular life.... it's Not the Flu!! ...the reality is that most of us who suffer from depression regardless of the severity and length of episodes....we never truly beat it. Depression (unless situational or post partum both of which can happen to anyone and may only occur once) is a lifelong illness So, at least for myself, I know that even when I have a period of some relief...it's still there. It's almost worse sometimes, cuz it's like I'm holding my breathe in dread just waiting for the "inevitable other shoe to drop" The best coping skills I have learned are to try to be in the moment as much as possible, so I'm not ruminating and catastrophizing and can occasionally actually enjoy those moments, hrs, days, months....yrs??*I wish!** of any relief. Idk what I'm trying to say...sorry if that just turned into a random rant...

[Marla500]

It's that way for me too, as far back as I can remember.

[Fuzzybear]