[AHeartOfRuby]

I feel like someone is inside my head flipping a light switch on and off, light to dark, positive to negative. I'm drowning in my past and am afraid of the future to come, I can't sleep soon once school starts I'll stop eating. I feel so misunderstood right now and can't find my voice when talking to people it just seems pointless. I went to Yellowstone with my dad his girlfriend my sister and her two daughters for a week and all I could think was he said he didn't even care if we came my disablity made it worse by tripping me up (literally) but now I'm home and exhausted. I can't hold onto joy, can't find control, can't get rid of my fear. I have my yearly X Rays for my cerebral palsy next week and that's mostly what's keeping me awake it always makes me depressed or nervous I really hope my injuries heal from falling. What's the point of all this when I can't get any better?

[Michelea]

I'm sorry you are having a difficult time. Why will you stop eating once school starts?

I can understand about your sleep being out of whack. When you aren't sleeping well, it just invites or worsens unhappy feelings. Sometimes listening to white noise can help. I've even listened to an extremely boring lecture when trying fall asleep...and that worked really well. lol

[AHeartOfRuby]

Stress decreases my appitiete.. I listen to white noise I can't fall asleep listening to people talk.. Omg my mom said the word surgery again I'm a sophomore I can't go through that again my heart aches..

[Skeezyks]

Hello AHeartOfRuby: I'm sorry you are struggling. I would simply like to send you my best wishes with the hope that your circumstances may begin to brighten as soon as possible.