[guiltier65]

it just hurts too much today. I'm trying, but it feels so futile and hopeless. I'm at work, but i don't want to be here. I'm praying that no one comes into my office. I cant bear to look at Facebook, because everyone is posting pictures of their children while my family is imploding! my heart hurts and I just want to put my head down and cry.... there is just too much pain.

[PurplePanda999]

Wow. You certainly have a lot on your plate! Sitting in a new therapist's office is anxiety producing enough; heavy metal is an odd choice for music. I might have walked out.

I guess the whole family transitions when a family member transitions gender. The fact that your child has the courage to do this speaks well of you as a parent.

I hope your new meds work out well for you. May you have a gentle day.

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[dexter]

Hi Guiltier I'm glad you made it in to work today. Take some deep breaths and stay off of Facebook. Look forward to the end of the day you can leave.

[Yours_Truly]

I don't have any great advice except be kind to yourself & I wanted to give you a hug

[Hopeofreedom]

I'm sorry your having a rough time right now. But take a deep breath and avoid Facebook at all costs!

Please treat your self ! Today ok?! 💜😙

[guiltier65]

I originally included more in my post, but it is so hard for me to open up. But there's just so much going on that I can't keep inside anymore. My youngest child (24 years old) announced about a month ago that he is transgender and will be transitioning this winter into female. Nothing changes my heart to them! I will always love and do my best to support, but my heart hurts so badly. I started crying last night in Taco Bell because a song came on that had been played at their wedding. The rest of the family has told them that they are loved but they do not support their decision. I'm trying to understand it all, but it is just too much to process. I have almost no one that I can trust with this including my family, I feel so alone and overwhelmed.

[Yours_Truly]

Keep posting, we will listen.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by guiltier65

I originally included more in my post, but it is so hard for me to open up. But there's just so much going on that I can't keep inside anymore. My youngest child (24 years old) announced about a month ago that he is transgender and will be transitioning this winter into female. Nothing changes my heart to them! I will always love and do my best to support, but my heart hurts so badly. I started crying last night in Taco Bell because a song came on that had been played at their wedding. The rest of the family has told them that they are loved but they do not support their decision. I'm trying to understand it all, but it is just too much to process. I have almost no one that I can trust with this including my family, I feel so alone and overwhelmed.

My little sister is transitioning to a boy. I have a hard time remembering this when I call her a her instead of him. Haha, it can be confusing sometimes and, yeah, it makes one's head hurt a bit. It gets easier after a while. My little brother explains things to me pretty openly and has a lot of patience (because I'm constantly asking questions about it). I find myself on the internet a lot and researching it. I'm trying to understand as much as I can. To be honest, I'm looking at it as a blessing. I have a lot of sisters but I've only had one brother my whole life. Now I have another brother! It's exciting to me and I'm just happy that now he can be happy in his new life and gender. My mom loves him still but doesn't fully support it, it weighs on him, but I'm trying to help work my mom through it. He needs his family behind his decision fully. Hopefully the rest of your family can come around to this conclusion as well. Don't feel so alone, I'm with you, if only through cyberspace.

[dexter]

I don't have first hand experience with this but as a member of the LGBT community myself I do have some second hand experience and I feel very comfortable with my transgender friends. I could see if I can find some resources and I'm also happy to talk about it here or privately... I'm not really that knowledgeable about it but I can share my personal thoughts.

[guiltier65]

Today seems to be a bit better so far: I'm not as teary and weepy. Maybe meds are kicking in ,maybe just a brighter day. However, i had a horrible melt down here at work yesterday and am trying to find ways of self care before i reach that point. I'm not having any luck finding resources; does anybody know of anything?
I'm trying so hard to keep it together. I've had to leave work before to be taken to the hospital and i'd like to avoid a repeat performance. I'm afraid if i can't get it together, they'll give up on me.