[Venny2900]

Ive been making research about people who have the same thing as me.... Some of them are 15.... and others 50.... Am I going to live the rest of my life like this? And if i ever do get the chance to take medicine.... Then is it really worth it? Ill be on life support.... Why cant I be happy? Okay maybe not jumping on my ceiling.... just okay, not paranoid or wanting to lay down and die. If im going to live the rest of my life like this than i should make that rest short.... If i broke something i could close my eyes and grind my theeth, and forget about it..... And not feel guilty about taking meds.... But this.... I dont want to anymore.... Im thinking of flying myself to russia where its legal to decide the lengh of your life.

[sabby]

Venny...Welcome to PC.

I'm sorry you are feeling badly. I'm sure it must be difficult for you. Please remember that depression lies to you. It tells you things are worse than they are. It can tell you things are hopeless, but that is NEVER the case. There is always hope.

People of all ages and walks of life suffer with depression. You cannot compare the length of time or age with yourself. While symptoms may be the same in many folks, reasons behind depression can vary greatly. There are many different ways of dealing with depression from medication to therapy to personal relaxation skills etc etc.

Please know that your situation is not at all hopeless and there are ways of working through your difficulties. Try to keep an open mind and push those lies depression tells you to the curb.

I wish you well Venny....please take good care of YOU!

*Gentle Hugs*
sabby