[unwashed]

i am new to this forum and new to talking about this stuff.

my meds are risperidone 6mg, bupropion 300mg, lamotrigine 100mg and duloxetine 60mg,

i am a 41yo father of 2 that are over 18 now i raised them on my own while hiding all this until recently so i didn't lose my kids.

i have severe depression i hate myself and every thing i have ever done i am suicidal i feel like i am not worthy of living. these feelings have been reduced by my meds but not enough. there have been several times that i think i should go to the ER but i am scared of what might happen. i don't want to get locked up. the mental hosp in my area is horrible and in trouble with the state. my doc won't give me any benzos to get over the bad days and i don't know what to do.

welcome to PC. it's good to meet you, I hope that this site helps.

Do you know why you are so depressed?. what's causing it?

are the meds helping you?

[t0rtureds0ul]

Hi. I just wanted to say hi, as I'm new here and very depressed at the moment too. Hopefully this place will be somewhere safe to vent.

[Fuzzybear]

[little turtle]

hi....I am sorry you are feeling so awful

[QueenCopper]

(((hugs)))

[unwashed]

not sure of the cause and the meds are helping just not enough and ect is just way to scary right now. so i just go day to day like hitting the reset button in the morning bout all I can do. i did just start therapy last week i hope it helps.

[Aussie sheepdaze]

Hi and welcome. Do know that god awful feeling you are experiencing SO well .. really tough to deal with. Sending warm wishes from Australia.