[Smashedwindshields]

Hi.

My name is Connor, 20 years old

So I'm posting this here because I don't really have an anger issue per se, and chronic depression is closest
to what I've been dealing with as far as I can tell, in spite of my limited knowledge regarding mental illness. Suffice it to say I've never been diagnosed so bear with me.

Anyway, I'm posting here because recently I've been having really extreme urges to destroy objects. And I'm stressing objects because there is no homicidal intent felt when this . More so I just want to take a crowbar and smash a window, wall, etcetera. Or hit something hard enough with my fist to make my knuckles bleed. When this happens I don't really feel much of anything but the impulse to break things, no anger. Also I'm generally socially anxious but when this happens and for a long while after I feel extremely self-confident.

I don't know what this means and it's only begun recently.
I am stressed out generally recently, I lost a relationship with someone I really loved, changed jobs and am in the process of moving all over the span of about the last month.

Thanks in advance.

Hello Connor, welcome to PC! I hope you find your time here to be of benefit.

Have you thought of doing exercise when feeling angry? Any kind is fine, but maybe something like kickboxing would be up your alley. There are many free workouts available on youtube and the web in general, if you look for them. It's a healthy way to get the aggression out.

[leejosepho]

Stress, frustration, grief, anger...all of those kinds of things can can cause me to feel like destroying things to get a clean slate and start over or whatever, or even just to try to get someone to notice -- a cry for help -- when all is not well with me. And in my own case, that has in the past occasionally included thoughts of homicide. Taking every thought captive and finding alternate courses of action when the thoughts are destructive is how I deal with that today, and I encourage you to learn to tell Mr. Feelings to just chill for a bit in the back of your bus whenever he tries to get into the driver's seat.

[Smashedwindshields]

I'm not particularly worried about it. I just don't understand it. Other than confidence I feel really numb when that mood strikes me and wonder if it's a bad sign.

Re: Scaredandconfused

Yeah I work out and go for runs but it doesn't seem to change the feeling, if anything it makes it stronger.