Back at it Again

I used to be extremely depressed. A year ago I moved two hours away to a different school to live with my mom just because I knew if I stayed any longer with my dad I would kill myself within months. I finally felt like I could breathe and it was going all great. Until now.

Today at school I had so many issues. One of my "friends" kept teasing me about things and I snapped and started throwing his things in the lunch room. My smile seemed to drop in my one class and no one could bring it back. My best friend for years is depressed and getting an eating disorder, and it almost seems like I'm getting triggered by it. My boyfriend (of one whole week, aren't I special) is already started to drive me crazy. My ex is saying terrible things and making me hate myself a little. My stepdad lost his job and we're even more broke than before. And to top it all off I can't sleep at night because my boyfriend told me a scary story (I'm a baby about that stuff) and I can't get it out of my head.

I definitely think I'm going through a depressive episode, and I really hope it isn't all going to come rushing back. It's happened once before in the past year and I was down for nearly a month. It's like I'm not used to being depressed anymore so just a little sadness hits me like a freight train.

I hope this is just a short episode for you. Sounds like you have a lot going on, that it's no wonder you are a bit depressed. Hang in there and reach out for help before it gets too bad. I'm bad about waiting until I'm in crisis mode before reaching out for help then it always takes longer to get back on track. Good luck.

I hope it's a short episode too... it's normal to be sad if you're having a difficult period in your life. Let's just hope everything will pass