[passionfruit3]

What's long term care like I ask cause I'm possibly headed there.if my mother wasn't here with me now I'd be there already.i dont know if I should thank her or not.it seems like it would be terrible.my therapist keeps saying I have control over my behavior but what if I really dont.or else why would I choose to do things that could cause me more pain.i really dont get th doesn't make sense.i dont know why id be acting out in the hospital to get attention as she says why do I want attention?I cant figure this out and it bugs me because it shouldnt be this way.i shouldn't be blacklisted from hospitals .I shouldnt be acting out either but I shouldnt be punished for it.i shouldn't even want to go to the hospital it's an addiction along with my addiction to suicide.and the madness has to stop somewhere either in a long term or my death

[MtnTime2896]

Hospitalized, hard and not fun. Intense outpatient, hard and a little less not fun but still not fun. Either one is work and both are meant to help with issues that less intense short term care can handle on it's own. Best to do some research to get insight on if it would be beneficial. My insight is both biased and not going to be of help right now in regards to my lack of coherency, but I'll try and answer better tomorrow if no one else is able to. Hang in there passion.