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Oct 25, 2016, 10:50 AM
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you know, sometimes when I post on here; some of you probably want to hurt me because I'm so filled with positivity. I get that. But today is not one of those days.
Today I keep closing my office door because I want to be alone and just cry for a while. I am just plain hurting... My older son moved 200 miles away this weekend and I'm struggling with that. I know it's the natural order of things. He's 26, I get it. It's just harder than I thought it would be. Then my other child, my youngest; who announced that they are transgender informed me that they will be starting HRT in the next couple of months. I'm just not ready.. I feel so selfish, but I'm grieving the fact that I'll never hold his children and that it will be my last Christmas with my daughter and 2 sons. Next year will look different and I'm still processing that. Some days are better than others, this just isn't one of my better days. Family dinner with out of town relatives this week and I'm just dreading it. Having to smile and act like everything is ok is just beyond my abilities right now. The sad thing is I know that we are all faking it. I just think that it's pathetic that we have to put on our happy faces and try to make it believable. sorry for the whining... I'm trying to be transparent. I'm tired of trying to deal with this on my own. |
 *Laurie*, Fuzzybear, little turtle, MtnTime2896, Yzen
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Oct 25, 2016, 11:00 AM
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Oct 25, 2016, 12:03 PM
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I understand how hard it is to have your son move so far away. One of my adult children went to univ in Italy and in France. Fortunately, I was able to fly over to see him once. Now he lives 90 miles from me, but he's talking about moving to Seattle, which is quite far. I encourage him because that's the healthy thing to do, but inside I will be very sad if he moves so far away.
Like Kahlil Gibran said...Our children are not ours, for they live in the house of tomorrow... |
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Oct 25, 2016, 04:07 PM
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Feel free to post as you please with whatever content you desire (and what will be allowed). You know I'll always be listening. By the way, I don't consider a post like this whiny. You need help and/or support; that's why we're here.
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"Give him his freedom and he'll remember his humanity." |
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