[passionfruit3]

My mom was so pissed at me today she overheard a conversation me and my godmother were having in which I told her last night I had pushed myself off the counter backwards the same way I'd done in the hospital she immediately gets mad and starstruck yelling well if your going to do that it won't be under my ròof.and then my dad putting his two cents in she just needs attention.then my mom is like she doesn't want to live with us.and it was just a mess.i also later went to the doctor and found out I may have pulled my back muscle by doing it.i feel like though I have a demon inside of me otherwise I wouldn't be compelled to constantly do these bad things .I wouldn't still feel compelled to try this again

[qwerty68]

Nope, no demon. Getting parents to understand seems to be a recurring issue. As a parent myself, that alarms and saddens me but I don't know how to approach that. I am very sorry you are struggling. As someone who gets dangerous compulsions, I can only say that disengaging my brain, if that makes sense, is very helpful to let it go without issues.

[Skeezyks]