[ZACHARY33]

I been diagnosed with ocd anxiety and depression last year since then I feel that I have improve mentally but not as quite as I expected I still struggle with school,motivation and some days I feel sucidal I'm in my last year of high school and I don't know if I'm gonna graduate in June I feel like a failure in life my dad does not want to even talk to me becuase he believes I'm lazy and I'm going to be a drop out just like my brothers and I feel so stressed out.Today I feel realy shity I did not go to school i feel tried as **** and I keep thinking about why cant I be more brave and just end my life. you guys have any advice I'm all hears

[MickeyCheeky]

I'min my last year too... I know it's hard

Please, don't give up

[leejosepho]

Originally Posted by ZACHARY33

I keep thinking about why cant I be more brave and just end my life. you guys have any advice I'm all hears

I would guess your will to live is much greater than your willingness to abandon the bravery you already display by not giving up even though there are times when mere feelings try to drag you there.

OCD and anxiety can be managed and maybe even overcome, and that can help with depression. Do you know what kind of additional counsel or help might be available there at your school? Your dad might not understand what he calls "lazy" is actually just a symptom of needing some direction, and I once had the very same thing going on during my own senior year.

[Fizzyo]

hang on in there, the last year often feels impossible even when people have no mental health problems.

If you can keep going with the work you have to do you'll get there.

Is it worth talking to a tutor/lecturer? Do you have access to a school counsellor?

It is always worth asking for help, they may allow you some rescheduling, or consideration if your marks are borderline.

Equally they are likely to understand better than your dad does and some support may help you through.

I was ill with depression in my final year at uni and I got some psychology and it could have been taken into account if it was necessary when grading my exams.

Best of luck and caring wishes

[MtnTime2896]

These are all illnesses that can be managed and even overcome, but you have to start treating them. A therapist or at least a school counselor is a start. Sometimes, suffering in school is a by-product of mental illness and if you get to work on this and get through it, who knows you could flourish in academics. When it comes to your dad, I can't really speculate very much. Regardless of his views, you need to take care of you.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Zachary33: I noticed this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

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[PumpkinPieHead]

Hi Zack! Welcome to the community!
I'm sorry to hear of this rough time! You hang in there kid, you can do it.