I didn't get fired, but I had found a job through the YMCA Employment Centre and was on a contract. My contract just ended and they didn't hire me on permanently. So not fired....but not re-hired.

I completely understand why I was not hired on permanently. I was missing too much work, I was not reliable enough. My YMCA worker said that we can try job hunting again in the new year. She has been very supportive throughout this whole process.

I was only working 9 hours a week, but it felt good to have a job. I actually felt like I was somewhat independent, if that makes any sense. I was proud of myself sometimes. Now I am jobless again. I am on disability so I won't starve, but I guess my pride is wounded. Couldn't even handle 9 hours a week.

I have been on a new anti-depressant for just over two weeks, so hopefully by the new year it'll have made a more noticeable difference. I really would like to find a job that suits me well. I was recently inpatient at the psych hospital and my psychiatrist said that he could see me earning a six figure salary within 5-6 years, saying I was very intelligent but needed to use it to my advantage. I can't say that I agree, if I can't handle a measly 9 hours a week.

[Skeezyks]

Good luck with your upcoming job search!

[Nammu]

I'm on disability too, and went though goodwill to be hired. I was only working 17 hours a week. It got cut down to 12.35 hours a week. Even though they said I was doing everything they hired me to do. I lacked the self esteem and that hurt me badly. I've lost so many jobs in the past that I don't have any self esteem left when it comes to work. But yeah, it felt so good to have a job. If I had applied for another semester I doubt they would have hired me on. But for the summer. School session I was acceptable.

[MickeyCheeky]

Be proud of yourself.. you've managed to work quite a lot despite being in a difficult situation! Not everyone would have been able to do that. I'm sure you'll get better at handling your work.. hope you'll find another one soon. Big hugs

[gayleggg]

Good luck with the new antidepressants. Hopefully they will give you the needed boost you need.

And be proud of holding down the job you had. I can't even do that. Good luck to you as you start a new job search.