[passionfruit3]

I think it is interesting how there are all these different worlds that pro ana and pro suicide and I have to add to the deaf world cause there all similar in the way you can't seem to understand these world's unless your in them people want deaf people to use cholera implants so there children.my can hear a lot of deaf people believe that there's nothing wrong with being deaf and using sign language but hearing people can't understand that pro ana no one see why people want a group were they can have tips to be super skinny to the point that they'll die or do anything to lose weight and pro suicide people no one can understand why people would want to kill themselves instead of getting help.you can't understand cause you'd have to be in there world and believe like them or your just washing there time telling them stuff they heard before

How are you doing today, passionfruit3?

[passionfruit3]

If you get a disease and don't take care of yourself on purpose is that considered suicided.i try to say don't want to die though I still get tempted but I'm close to getting diabetes and Ive already decided I won't fight the disease is that suicide?

[*Laurie*]

In my opinion, it is a passive suicide, yes.

I agree with LauraBeth....

Passionfruit, I have a student right now whose father has severe diabetes and he has not been taking care of himself. It got so bad that his mother and this student moved out and away from the father because they refused to enable his dangerous lack of attention to his health any longer. That father has lost his entire support system because they could no longer stand by and watch him slowly kill himself. So this brilliant, wonderful young man has lived in hotels and friends' homes, etc. all because of the father's unwillingness to help himself. This whole family has been uprooted and torn apart because a man couldn't be bothered to follow the directions of his doctors and maintain his health.

You are young. You do not have diabetes. Work on improving your health. There is no reason why you cannot get a handle on your blood sugar levels. My own husband was diagnosed diabetes type 2 and with some really very basic lifestyle changes, he no longer is diabetic. Work on the issues that are causing you depression and your obsession with hurting yourself. You can get beyond this and find a much more positive place in life, but it takes a great deal of work and resolve. This affects more than just you.

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

If you get a disease and don't take care of yourself on purpose is that considered suicided.i try to say don't want to die though I still get tempted but I'm close to getting diabetes and Ive already decided I won't fight the disease is that suicide?

This does sound like passive suicide

Diabetes if not treated adequately can cause permanent and horrible harm but not necessarily death. I advise you not to go that way

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

This does sound like passive suicide

Diabetes if not treated adequately can cause permanent and horrible harm but not necessarily death. I advise you not to go that way

True. I know of many who have gone blind, gone through amputations, deal with excruciating pain from neuropathy who have lived that way for decades. It isn't at all an easy route to death. I would say it would be a very long, slow, painful death.

[MtnTime2896]

Originally Posted by passionfruit3

If you get a disease and don't take care of yourself on purpose is that considered suicided.i try to say don't want to die though I still get tempted but I'm close to getting diabetes and Ive already decided I won't fight the disease is that suicide?

Two years ago, when I was diagnosed with cancer, I didn't want to fight it. I wanted to take the "opportunity" to be done. Well, I ended up fighting because I couldn't stand my strong fiance and mother sobbing in empty rooms where they didn't think I'd hear. I lived for them. Didn't mean I was happy about it. In fact, I became quite bitter after I was told I was in remission. Since then, I've actively avoided PET scans and such that could detect if it returned. I'm now working on getting them back because I know now that what I've been doing is, like Laura said, "Passive suicide". Passion, to die slowly like that, to literally feel the life being drained out of you and watching the people who love you suffer while there's nothing you can do to ease their pain; it's the worst damn feeling I've ever experienced. It's not the way to go. Ever.
I couldn't fight for myself because I didn't see myself as worthy of my own efforts. I fought for them. My mother wouldn't have lived long after I would've dropped. My fiance would be in a dark place that I already know, in a type of pain I never want him to experience. The price is too high, to let ourselves die.

[kgerulaitis]

Hi sophiesmom, I have just joined this site and the quote you made concerning the agony of having an untold story really hit home with me. There are so many pieces to my life story that I hardly know where to begin....but I need to tell it...share it...