[wisewoman]

Well, I have had a problem with my laptop for a few days and last night decided to tackle it. What fun. First I couldn't get it to reformat and then I couldn't download all of the drivers and utilities I needed as I do not have dsl and my internet is slower then molasses in feb in Manitoba. I was obsessed with it to the point where I stayed up half the night trying unsuccessfully to download. As I was watching this I started working on a fiber project. At first it was awkward, uneasy, clumsy, but as the night progressed I realized I remember how to do this and had an almost finished product by the time I gave up at 1:45 a.m. for bed. Now there are good and bad things here. I AM INTERESTED IN STUFF AGAIN! I am a little obsessed as well. I kept thinking all day about finishing the project, Like I was stressed by it not being done. I feel fine about it now. The laptop.... well, I went to a friend's and used her dsl and burned a cd with all of the stuff i needed to get it back online. I love this machine, I can use it in bed, anywhere I want. I am maybe feeling like spending less time in bed now. I know I need to sleep regular hours and eat, I have not been good about either this last 24. But there is hope here somewhere. I created! and I solved a problem! The prozac should help the obsessional stuff.

[SeptemberMorn]

I see it as all good! That's probably because I get that way sometimes, too. But then, I'm not the only one. I have a friend that shows absolutely no signs of mental illness and she'll get on a kick. Sometimes she crochets, sometimes she makes quilts, etc. She won't put any of it down till she's done. So maybe you and I are "normal"? LOL

It's a good thing, Lady!




<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>

[cleomaru]

first i have to ask if you have a bipolar diagnosis, this kind of seems like the night spent up the frustration, the lack of sleep perhaps, might have triggered a manic episode or phase. I know its really really hard, but your sleep is more important than your creativity right now. besides if yo uhave no energy from sleeping, you wont' have the energy to create.

however, i bet everyone here would be pretty interested in seeing a picture of what you created.

cleo

"don't kick the puppy" ~ j.e.p.

[wisewoman]

No Bipolar diagnoses here. Major depression and some obsessional thinking, ptsd, gad. Really not so hot today. Intrusive thoughts and images. Bummer.

[cleomaru]

hammm, maybe you've run into an anxiety mixed with hypomanic eppisode......... who knows....... but do try to get back to a sleep schedule, maybe you need some sleepers from your doc

"don't kick the puppy" ~ j.e.p.

[wisewoman]

I have ambien and it works well except that night I chose not to take it "yet" because I wanted to get the comp figured out. I ended iup geting obsessed and staying up way to late and when I looked at the clock it was too late to take it and I slept poorly. I don't see any hypomania here. I see yesterday was a ver hard day with anxiety and depression creeping in heavier. Still titrating the meds and may need to add a second for the depression. I feel better then I did when I started new meds but I think as I start to feel better I want more and more. I want to feel a lot better and I get anxious that it won't get better enough. I fear having to be highly functional when I get back to work. Wait, not supposed to be doing that, just supposed to be here, now, breathe and stay in this moment.

[kcj]

hi, im new here but i just wanted to say that sometimes with me, i find scrapbooking helps. I go through all my old photographs of happier times in my life and create special pages that incorporate my photos and add journal entries about the photos i have used. it helps me to focus on the happier times in my life and the special memories that we sometimes forget about.
just a thought............

case

[(JD)]

Hello.

<font color=blue> I love my notebook...and generally am in bed from pain and fatigue... like now.

I find myself forcing myself to solve problems that I just cannot figure out in the state I am in. Often, if I put it off until another time, I find I can fix it in a very short time.

Breathing is good. Distractions are good. Which is what I do some here...
but anything that you need to do to keep from reacting to your circumstance will help.<font color=purple>

Just stay the course, sounds like you are on a good one.

<font color=blue> meditation is a true way to connect to the Source </font color=blue>