My life outside of my teenage box wasn't good, I just got seddled in with my new T,..my paranoia has increased,..as well as my depression and social anxiety. Nightly I cry,..then theres days of blankness..where no years flow...only thoughts...

What I'm about to tell you was just told to my therapist...I'm afraid she won't get back...I need her so bad..I wonna a hug...I wonna not be afraid to cry infront of others.....

Today was wednesday...and thats how my therapist wanted me to see it as...we talkled alot about living in the moment....I'm not sure why...but she has reason...

So..first thing I thought of was my T....her voice....her...I got up and thought strong....went on the bus..and the journey began...this is my LAST year of school...so first thoughts are ...this will be easy...but already knwing we have a new schedule,principal,staff,...and students makes it a bit more easier to say its gonna be hell.

But being me I remembered my T,...sometimes I would cry ...cause she wasn't there,...I wanted a hug so many times...

I got there anyway and my schedule was totally..messed up...and this year you can't sign up for a talk with the guidance counselor rather only hope your advisor tells them..and they care...I'm in parenting nad where I live they look and men funny for taking that class...its mostly about pregnancy is why I suppose...the class...will be hard for me to cope in..not beacuse of the subject but the looks i already got...

Then to top it offf...they didnt give me classes I need to graduate...wow...tears where rolling by this point...then I come in tell mom she's so worried she screams...soo.....damn....I'm so sick of life...I do horrible in the silence of my bedroom in the dark...but i do EVEN WORSE outside in the open light with all these creatures I had to be HUMAN..........!!!!!!!!!!!

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PLEASE TTTTT ...E-MAIL ME BACK..*PRAYS*

[Soidhonia]

Dustin. I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. Can your mother call the school and have your schedule changed so you can graduate? Over sights do happen at times or perhaps you can call tomorrow and see if the school can straighten things out before school gets going full force. Take care of yourself. Dustin. Soidhonia

[drummergrl]

Dustin:
Have your mom call the school, or go up there and simply say, change his schedule or I'll send him elsewhere. I had to do that in my d's. senior year. They gave her all electives, and no academic classes. I said, oh no......she will be overwhelmed next semester if you do that.
Change it or I take her out!!!!

I'm sorry you caught your mom at a bad moment. She was having alot on her mind and you came in and snapped the cord. She reacted Dustin, not the way she might have had she not been preoccupied???? Try again later. If not.....email your T and tell her what's going on. Maybe she can get through to your mother???....................