[RJ42]

Do you ever get the feeling that you do not fit with any other people? Do you feel like you've been on the outside looking in your entire life?

These are two of the biggest things I feel. When you are a child, you learn many of the most important things to face daily life challenges, interacting with people, self worth, l--e (sorry can't say or spell it), compassion, communication, and understanding.

When you are forced to put yourself aside and care about others, take care of things a child has no business doing, and be responsible for siblings and other children's daily survival, blocked from interacting with other people outside home, and any type of fun and freedom, you are not going to be able to function properly as an adult, person, or self.

These things are intensified when you are bullied at school. Being only able to go between school and home, you have no escape from bullying, pain, suffering, sadness, low or no self worth, and suffering.

When you don't learn the needed skills, trying existence as an adult is very difficult. It is difficult because you have responsibilities like a job, bills, etc., on top of being drained from depression, pain, loneliness, and trying to survive. Counseling helps some people as well as medications. Sometimes people, like me, aren't helped by these things. Without ever being l--ed or accepted even by your family, you've never known the things that give a person meaning and life.

My body is alive, but my heart and soul are dying. I, like others, have sacrificed so much of ourselves to make sure others live life. Surviving is not living. It is a cold, dark, and empty existence. I will continue to survive until my time comes. It's all I've known so at least I'm good at it. I stay away from other people now because I don't want what's inside me to destroy others. I've tried talking to other people but end up hearing things I've said from complete strangers.

Trust, respect, confidentiality, communication, and social interaction are becoming extinct. I don't even believe people really know what l--e is anymore. I've seen people use it in a fake way to get what they want, beat people over the head, and even destroy others. I no longer seek it because of this. It messes with my will to survive. That is all I have left and I don't want to lose that.

[Fuzzybear]

[Fuzzybear]

It saddens me how little support some of the best people in life apparently receive...

Just one of the reasons I'm so tired and disgusted with life

(This is not about anyone on pc)

[Fizzyo]