[twirl94]

Hi, this is my first post. I'm sorry, just need to tell someone. I don't even know where to start. I'm 23 and was diagnosed with social anxiety and depression.
I've been on SSRI for a year now.

Don't really want to write all about my depression but I need some help on how to deal with emotions. I have been in LDR for 1,5 years (we met IRL).
Everything was great until 5 months ago when we started to argue all the time. Everything makes me angry, my confidence is 0, I hate myslelf, I doubt every word said to me. When I have a problem with something I want to talk/aruge about it while my bf wants to let it go and be forgotten. It makes me so frustrated. I send him a millions of messages everytime that happens and he tells me to "stop being dramatic", "calm down" or something else. When that happens I feel like I am crazy, I hate myself for being like that but I cannot let it go. If I let it go I'll stop caring completly and I don't want that. I hate when I get frustrated because I want to hurt myself and I keep thinking how retarded I am and how everyone will leave me. I think about suicide a lot but I'd never do it as long as I have my family. He also thinks I am crazy when that happens because we are completly different and don't really understand each other that well. (he also suffers from depression). I don't want to break up because I love him.

I have tons of other issues I could write about but this is what makes me feel so awful most of the time.

Please share some advice, I'm going mad and think I'll turn paranoid shizo at the end or something

[bearguardian]

I suffer from depression (among other things) and am from Croatia but Im not versed, at least to say, with human relations so basically I just want to say hey.
And maybe find your peace of mind kinda advice, spirituality, meditation, psychology, therapy...
Find a therapist. That is probably the advice.

[Fuzzybear]

Welcome to pc

I think the best advice is to find a therapist.. and please keep posting

[twirl94]

Thank you all!

I had a therapist for a short time.. I stopped going because I felt embarrased to talk to her and felt like she does not understand me.. I should look new one up yea : p