The other day, I was prescribed antidepressants and told to consider taking them. I REALLY don't want to as I don't feel I need them, and because they seem to have awful side effects and withdrawal symptoms. So, I've decided to try and figure out my problems instead (I'm also seeing a therapist for PTSD which I feel is my real problem).

So I was thinking about the reason I'm feeling down.. I realised it's something I've 'always' felt - and it comes from not having been able to affect my life or circumstances as a child - when the trauma that caused my PTSD happened.

Now, I think it's perfectly normal that something like that would make you 'depressed' - sad! Being in a bad place (I grew up scared out of my mind of my dad) without any chance of getting out (unless I'd escaped to the streets which would have had its own dangers) - of course, that's a horrible place to be in and will affect how you feel.

Now, I need to realise I'm no longer that little girl - I need to own the adult woman I've become. I can affect my life and have a say in it - in fact, I think I'm the only one who should have that (and does have it if only I accept it). But of course, that's the PTSD - still feeling like I'm in the 'warzone'.. And that's why I'm going to therapy to deal with it This is what I'm going to tell the docs if they get angry with me for not accepting the meds..

[little turtle]

whatever works for you....not what works for others...just work with what really happened and find out who you really are..

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by little turtle

whatever works for you....not what works for others...just work with what really happened and find out who you really are..

Good post, I completely agree with this

[MickeyCheeky]

Wish you good luck on your journey