[wiretwister]

There are times even when life is going good ... that a wave of empty can sweep over you ... such is now ... I am filling it with all I have ...

곧 규. . . 천사의 음성으로 나를 치유하십시오. . 나를 위해 노래.

I pray each of you can find such an anchor in this storm tossed life we live ...

곧 규. . . 나는 당신을 필요로하고, 내 영혼의 모든 섬유질로 당신을 사랑합니다. . . 천사의 음성으로 나를 치유하십시오. . 나를 위해 노래.

달콤한 공주라고 불러주세요. . . 너의 사랑스러운 목소리로. . .

God bless you all ... Tigger .

[MtnTime2896]

Keep fighting, my friend. I enjoy your posts and I'm cheering you on from afar.

I appreciate this post very much.

Thank you for this.

[mountainstream]

[Yours_Truly]

Thank you wiretwister. I wish the same for you.

[Fuzzybear]

[wiretwister]

it is now thursday nite ... many changes coming at work ... new paperwork ... people moving around ...

I do not do change well ... next days .. weeks ... maybe tough ... feel darkness coming ... lots and lots of

xanex .... confused over my gg girls ... just not as comfortable as I want ... so worried for soon kyu ... so

tired ... sleep suffering ...

[wiretwister]

friday night and darkness looming ... will drown in my gg tomorrow to meet the beastie head on ... work stress seems to be winning lately ... but I am not giving up ... not too dark yet ... just so tired ... no energy at all ... so many pains just halting my spirit ...

she has pulled me up before and god willing will again ... (blue) Tigger.

너의 마음이 자유롭지 않으면 너는 자유로울 수 있니?

[wiretwister]

it is amazing what your mind can get upto when given too much time alone ... when you wonder is it my mind trying to readjust to a lower dose ... or is this really me ... when you want out ... but am too afraid of failure again ... poured out those little bottles and counted tonight ... 160mg of xanex ... to bad I don't drink ... that might just be dangerous .... so much fear of damage and being on tubes and machines ... it is our life should it not be our choice of time ... would it not serve humanity better to lessen the drag on resources ... I have never understood why we will move heaven and earth to "save" an attempt or an od but then drop them like a hot potato the instant they are breathing again ... we do them no favor ... no one knows a persons limit except that person ... should we not respect that ...

it is so sad to base your life on another , esp one that it is impossible to touch , meet or even converse with ... to live for food ... to break down life to periods of fitful sleep interupted by unbearable days of lonelyness and waste ... to mearly wait for release ... in natures own good time ...

tomorrow we try gg again ... how shallow i feel ... but at least they make me feel something ... though not as much and not as long as before ... need a higher dose ... but there is none ... feel like the life line is slipping thru my hands ... and I do not see a knot at the end of the rope ...

the strong die once ... cowards like me die every night ... only to awaken every morning just a little less of myself ... given enough time I may just disappear completely ... what a thought ... Tigger.

ps: sleep well my friends ... I love you I really do ... if only I could love myself as much ...

너의 개인적인 마음의 사랑스러운 소리

[Unrigged64072835]

(((((Tigger)))))

Sorry you're feeling so down.