Off abilify yeah baby... Sorta

Hello friends! I've been away on a vacation down the drain into severe depression. It's been miserable, let me tell you. I'm sure you can relate. Anyway, I've recently been getting these itches to do things and one is to talk to you all! I've missed you! Please don't hate me for leaving :'(

So let me rant. I gained 20lbs in about 2months when I started abilify and I just couldn't take it anymore so I told my pdoc I quit. She told me to taper off an I've been listening like a good girl (not sure how I managed, but look at me go). I'm almost off and I haven't lost a pound! What is this nonsense? I object.

I'm all over the place now without abilify keeping me level. It's been a really intense and whirlwind experience since I've been going on dates like it's my job. I had a moment of clarity, though, and told my most recent catch that I didn't trust myself and that I needed to be alone. Can't believe I had the self control to pull it off! Now I'm just fighting the urge to go meet questionable people and have a good time. It sucks being responsible. Harumph.

Last thing, at least with all this swinging around things are coming back in brighter colors. I can't believe how much music I've been missing out on! It's magical and moving and I can feel things again! It's divine! Plus I'm eating food without as much nausea so that's a plus.

Not sure how long this will last. I'm still sleeping about 12 hours a day and my mood is absolutely atrocious between upswings. Like I said, I just wanted to check in with you all and see if anyone wanted to chat. You're all beautiful and deserve lots of love! Hit me up. I'm writing a paper for class and I don't feel like focusing. Lalalaaaa

Hello, Ellie_jo
Super! That's a step in a good direction. May other positive things arrive in time.

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