[mkwestin]

I'm in dire need to find a location to admit me with no money or insurance, and monthly payments. I've been severely depressed for the last 2 years, i lost another job last month and i just lost it. I've barricaded myself inside and only get up for bathroom, my mind is running 100mph, can't sleep, isolated myself for 3 weeks straight, i feel crippled i cant settle down i cant stop myself from being overwhelmed with shame and how everyone else thinks of me. This sunday i finally broke down and let my parents know whats going on. There answer just move in here thats all you need, it's like nothing i said registered and they think flip a switch and boom go back to normal. Unfortunately when i said ive lost my ability to stop these feelings from being overwhelming to a point i feel 100% hopeless, because i said i can't move in with my parents now i can't get them to stop making me feel a 100x's worse with negativity, and saying i'm nuts mental is not a real thing. I've contacted 100's of centers when they find out you have no money or insurance they just stop answering, I've had some centers search my name and called people with same last name my parents without my knowledge, i've had some ask for family numbers and "Don't worry i'll get them to pay"", and finally told me to call 911 and tell them im going to kill myself... I'm blown away at all this, and in the meantime i'm at a point where im getting worse by the minute knowing i'm begging for help and the above is what i get. I'm 36 white male from 16 to 24 i was a terrible man and full blown addict. Since then i've turned around, got help for about a year i gave up drugs and have been fine. Because of my record when i was young i'm the 1st person fired every time. Over the last 2 years i started being overwhelmed with feeling of shame, and im 36 and have nothing, new jobs every 6 months, finally since my last job fired me i totally shut down, never in my life have i felt anything like this, i'm terrified of how i'm feeling and can't get it to stop now. I'm begging for help i'll sign my life away to anyone that can help but i have nothing to offer besides 500 in my account but i would rather die then not make a payment with whoever would take me in, thats how serious i am and absolutely terrified on what to do. Give me one shot just this one and i gurantee by the end of this i'll be a success story like no other. 1 shot with money not being main priority. I've been a traveling commercial superintendent for 10years now once i get my mind where it needs to be i will build, remodel, absolutely anything anyone needs at your center i will do it no questions asked for as long as it takes... I've never been so overwhelmed in my life as i am right now, im the life of the party type of guy and honestly always just blew off mental stuff thinking mind over matter. I've watched myself over the last 2 years just digging deeper and deeper into a funk so much so even talking on phone i feel so embarassed and all i can think is how they must think i'm wacko. I have no clue whats happening or how to make it better, if you can't admit me i'd be forever grateful if you can reccomend what to do or where to go with no money or insurance without trying to scare money out of family or telling police i'm going to off myself. Any feed back at all i'd be forever grateful.
I'm blown away at how hard it is to get help without money etc. This is my 6th day in a row begging for help and i get back call 911, thats it. Ive never felt this way ever in my life and im terrified. Please someone i need help

[Skeezyks]

Hello mkwestin: I'm sorry you find yourself to be in such a desperate situation. And I'm afraid I don't have much in the way of advice for you either. Being a young single man you are pretty-much at the bottom of the totem pole when it comes to any kind of assistance I'm afraid.

If you haven't already tried this, you might try calling the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1 (800) 273-8255 & see if they have any suggestions. One does not have to be suicidal to call. They advertise they're there to help with any problem. And I believe, when you call, your call will be taken by a crisis intervention provider in your geographic area. The other option I suppose would be to simply go to a local hospital emergency services department, tell them you feel you are a danger to yourself & see if you can get yourself admitted. I believe any hospital that receives federal funds is supposedly required to provide a certain amount of "indigent care". Unfortunately getting them to provide it can sometimes be a struggle. If there is some sort of mental health advocacy organization in your area, they might be able to be of some help to you with this.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Mkwestin.
211 might be able to direct you to resources, I'm not sure.

[*Laurie*]

Hi, welcome to PC. I'm assuming you are in the U.S.? Which state are you in? Please go to your local hospital emergency room and tell them how you are feeling. They WILL hook you up with resources. Yes, there will be a wait, possibly of a few hours, but it's worth it.