Isolated and alone.

I'm having a lot of difficulty working through this. This isolation is caused by myself, I know that, and that should give me the tools to fight it.. But I seem unable, or unwilling to do it.

I don't even know what I'm doing day to day any more.

Nothing is making sense.

It's so difficult to hold on at the moment, and I feel like I'm running rapidly out of lifelines to keep me afloat.

it's ok to isolate yourself. i did it when i was deep in my depression. it's one way to cope and not have to put on a fake front for the rest of the world.

did you ever get to see your therapist? or could the Samaritans help you again? have you ever told someone everything that happened to you? again, i am so sorry for your suffering.

I give up.

I've been taken off Fluoxedine as it was doing nothing for me aside from making me feel nauseous.
I've been put on Mirtazapine as it should apparently help with my completely screwed sleep.

I don't even want to take it.

I don't want to be like this

I don't want to feel what i'm feeling.

Every single day I wake up and It feels as though I've been in chains all night. I feel heavy. I feel lost. I javen't showered in days and I've barely eaten anything.

I should go to hospital, or so i've been told. But they all keep trying to poison me. It's in the water, even the bottles.

I can't keep doing this. I can#t keep "living" this way. Every single day is such a struggle to do anything. Even logging into PC is difficult.
I want to change. I wan't to get better. I don't want to feel like i'm being torn apart from the inside and be in so much pain. I don't know how though

I'm o nthe waiting loist for a therapist. Who knows how long it'll be. I might call and cancel as I can't see the point of it anyway.

The paranoia and the panic attacks have really hit me. I've been told to take time off work sick.. I feel like even more of a failure.
I don't know why I keep fighting this

Sometimes fighting is what we know. Our minds are fighting a war long since passed but ever-present, just the same.

Time off work might be the best things for you, as it could ever-so-slightly decrease your stress level.

I'm really suffering from the withdrawal from prozac. It's even more of a nightmare inside my mind then it usually is at the moment.
I've landed at a friend who is usually pretty good at keeping me safe from myself, but she's struggling a lot too.
I have no idea how I'm going to make it through the next few days.

Here's where hypocrite leigheas emerges. Do you think that maybe checking yourself into a hospital while you ride through the withdraw would be a wise decision?

not to discount your pain but could your medications be affecting you negatively?

I ended up knocked out for 16 hours last night after my first dose. Clearly the sedative effect works..
I get that my meds may be affecting me in a bad way, but I think that may well have been the prozac. I know that I still felt this way before I started my meds, but I think it may have exasperated the issues.
I'm feeling a little better today, and haven't had any of the withdrawal effects so far today.

And, nosedive.
I thought I had been doing really well today and out of nowhere I've been crushed by the weight of expectation. I feel like I'm still failing with everything all over again.

Going off antidepressants - Harvard Health

hang in there dear acqpl!

I'm hanging in. Just.
I don't have any words today. I have no thoughts.
I simply am.

I can't do this any longer.
For too long I've hurt people. For too long I've let everyone down. I don't know why I bother.
I'm done. Screw this stupid game. I'm done with people playing with my life.

Talk to me, doesn't have to be on the thread.

I think you need to call a crisis line and talk to someone if you are feeling this low. Reach out to someone for help.

You can talk to me too, I know we don't know each other well but you're welcome to PM me if it might help (I'm a pretty good listener)

I'm here with you

I'm here if you need to talk as well. You're not alone.

how are you feeling today dear acqpl?

I don't feel like I can reach out, when my mind is telling me that there is nothing to reach out to.
I'm so tired. I'm so worn out by this.
It's an all encompassing feeling of darkness and I have no idea how to get out of this.
I've given up on the idea of suicide now. Even that won't help me now. I don't know what will.

I think you have done an amazing job in reaching out, to the Samaritans, to Mind, to your councillor, and along with all the other heroic posters, here on pc. it takes a lot of fortitude and inner strength to make the effort to climb up from the abyss of despair. we all want you to find the peace and happiness you so deserve.

have you been able to get some sleep?

I had a terrifying dream last night.. It's done a number on me today.
No energy, and barely moved from bed. I just can't function.