I don't know if it's depression, but I've been feeling stuck... mostly my entire life.
I can't loose my feelings well... I have so much anger.
At work today, I felt horrible - thoughts of hatred and wrath towards a past friend whom I feel damaged me so much.
I'm such a complex thread... overthinking, being stuck, almost having no friends now... I could never make friends well, and I've never been satisfied, and those I've been satisfied with - I felt they've been using me as a sponge of "evil" things (like being snide, angry talk, critical behaviors...) - I've been too tolerant...

Lately I made a few threads, but in a short time they went unanswered. I can assume it's due to complexity, but I literally don't know.

Someone...?
I felt like I can't take it anymore during work! I felt like I'm tearing apart, wanting to take a break from life...

[Clara22]

Hi Vibrating Obsidian,
Thank you for posting about your feelings and experiences. I think that many of us felt the same at certain point. Unless, I did. I mean, I do, sometimes. I feel that I give too much and I don't get reciprocal love, particularly from my family. It is disheartening. Before, I tried to embrace everyone by accepting their limitations. Now, it is harder. I am disappointed. Maybe, I am wrong, but to me, this situation transcends our individual cases. I think this is about a quick transformation in our society. People are becoming more and more isolated and self-centered. This has many roots and not only one, but it is devastating at many levels. We can get some tailored solutions for ourselves but real, long lasting solutions will need jointly reflections and actions.
I am sending you a big hug and I wish you strength

[subtle lights]

Hi, I'm sorry you are going through this now. What you're describing sounds like a really painful place to be in.

I can't know how it feels to be in your world right now, but the feelings you're describing remind me of something very familiar.
I felt similar at work to what you seem to be describing and now I'm on sick leave, not sure for how long.
With friends - it's hard. It feels sometimes that there is no way of making friends, actually most of the times. Still, it happens, or at least used to.
Feeling stuck sucks...here I have some long term expertis, haha. I could tell you, this somehow always changes, which I remember it used to be true for myself, but I won't tell you this now because I feel stuck as well for some time too.
So I just wrote all this, more like writing down my reactions based on your post. Not really helpful probably. I'm not so well and usually when I feel like this I don't post because I feel useless and think that whatever I do (or write in this case) is crap and not good enough.

I share your feelings about posts getting unanswered, I don't know about others but I sometimes don't post even when I'd like to because of the above mentioned reasons, that I think I need to be in a mental state where I could be helpful and be able to inspire or something. But maybe it's not a requirement after all, I don't know.

It's strange, but today I got up in a better mood. But I don't expect it resolved from here. I have much to work on - family relations which have been mostly each in his own business, the best way for me to make friends, taking some time for myself and what my heart wants...
I can't even explain how my feelings changed all of a sudden, but I still know why I felt those feelings, so it'll have to be resolved somehow...