[whisperingskye]

I have been waiting for a really long time to get in and see my psychiatrist and finally I have an appointment on Monday morning. I have been struggling quite a bit lately and I guess originally I needed this so I could be open and try and get some help before it gets too bad.

I seem to be in a different mindset now though. I tend to change my mind a lot. Now I'm not sure I care. I guess that's thanks to the suicidal thoughts/urges and general not giving a **** anymore...

I'm also planning on doing a skydive in 6 weeks..which is kind of part of the problem. When I arranged it I didn't exactly think ahead. Due to my mental health history I need a doctor to sign and say I'm fit to do it. I'm worried if I'm honest then this doctor isn't going to sign.

I just am not sure what I should be doing.. if you were in my position what would you do?

[Fuzzybear]

Oh dear I wish I knew what to advise

"Fit to do it .." ......

I think the best advice is to be honest ... I'm sorry you have this dilemma and I hope the doctors you speak to treat you decently and with respect and sensitivity.. you deserve it

[Marla500]

Is the sky dive something you are looking forward to? Or is it more something you feel obligated to do (it's for charity right?) in any case you should put your self first and not hold back from your therapist.

[Rohag]

Just to clarify, is this a tandem jump with an instructor?

Wishing you discernment, and I hope you do get to have the experience.

[whisperingskye]

Originally Posted by Marla500

Is the sky dive something you are looking forward to? Or is it more something you feel obligated to do (it's for charity right?) in any case you should put your self first and not hold back from your therapist.

I have very mixed feelings about the skydive, but I want to be able to do it.

Originally Posted by Rohag

Just to clarify, is this a tandem jump with an instructor?

Wishing you discernment, and I hope you do get to have the experience.

Yes, it's a tanden jump

[*Laurie*]

Whew, that's a tough decision. On one hand, the skydive could be dangerous for your mental health...on the other hand, it might be exhilarating and uplifting (so to speak).

BUT I would be honest with your pdoc, no matter what. I understand that's hard in this situation, but being honest with our doctors is essential.

[subtle lights]

I hear you, it sounds like not an easy decision to make. I think I would be honest with the doctor about what I'm feeling though, otherwise in my experience it's just an added anxiety which then tends to create some self fulfilling profecy...Also it might help to talk about it with someone IRL, maybe not only with the doctor (though I'm saying this, but not living by this advice lately...)

[whisperingskye]

I did talk about this with a friend the other day, it's kind of the only reason I'm now even contemplating being honest I guess. There are unfortunately very few people I'm able to trust or feel happy talking to about this stuff.

I think I know I need to be honest if I want to get out of this rut, but I also know me and how I can go to appointments with the intention of being completely open and then just change my mind once I'm there and maintain things are much better than they actually are.

[kkrrhh]

I would say your mental health is absolutely the most important thing. You mentioned yourself that you're having suicidal thoughts and not caring anymore...that's your mind and depression downplaying your need for help and trying to keep you from it, but you need and deserve as much help as possible. The best way to do that is to be totally honest with your psych. I would be totally honest with them about your problems and everything that's been going on, then talk about the skydive. Explain to your pdoc how important it is to you and that you're certain it'll be a positive thing for your mental health right now (as long as you are sure, which it sounds like you are).

I have the same problem you mentioned in your last post. Maybe it'd help to write some things down and bring them to your appointment with you? Then you can remember anything you want to say/mention and kinda hold yourself accountable.

Good luck with everything!

[MickeyCheeky]

I know how you feel. Like others have said, being honest with your doctors is the best thing.. try to explain them how you feel. Not easy, I know but it's worth trying. You deserve to get help