I'm Done

I'm done trying to talk. I'm done trying to explain. I'm done trying to create. I'm done trying to keep it together. I'm done trying to be fine with it all. I'm done trying to ignore the pain.

If any of that bothers you - then I guess you might want to be done with me too because I am just a lump of a thing. No longer a person. No longer do I matter. So don't worry bout me.

Let me alone. Leave me to rot. Let the stench rise high, to remind everyone the crud that I was. Then let me memory go and no longer dwell on me. I'm nothing anyway.

They do not listen

They do not try to listen

They do not understand

The bad rotten smell is from them..



(Not about anyone on pc)

I'm sorry if I triggered you on that other thread.

I have a lot of built up hatred and resentment for most of humanity because of how people like us are treated by them.

You're one of the nicest people that I've met on here and I'm pretty sure that you have helped a lot of people here which makes you far from "worthless".

It's not you ... it's just a God awful day for me. Thank you for your kind words. If you PM me I will explain, ok?

I don't want to be done with you because you are a lovely person whose posts have really helped me. I'm sorry you're having a tough time. You're not alone here and you are worthy. Please don't give up. Hugs coming your way.

Thank you ❤

Sometimes all of it just becomes too much. And then it feels like you were trying in vain. To do, talk, explain, create.
In reality you were actually doing, talking, explaining, creating. Uniquely and beautifully. And you will again.

Also, trying to keep it together and ignore the pain is exhausting. I am sorry you are suffering but I understand.

Thank you. Right now I want to cry but know I cannot. I hate that.

If all humanity treated everyone like we do hear , that would go a very long way to making this world a better place. Nobody is worthless , nobody is not worth or beyond redemption to society .

Sorry I didn't know what you're going through. I hope it gets better. You've helped me immensely, just a week ago I was in pain and completely hopeless, but now I'm almost optimistic by comparison, and that's in huge part thanks to you.

It's not you and you don't have to apologize. I enjoy helping others. I am glad I have been able to help you. ❤ Thank you for your kind words.

I agree.

I know that feeling, I hate that too.

I never cry anymore; I refuse to give people another reason to hurt me.

I would rather feel anger, hatred, and malice than sadness.

Being so sad that you want to cry yourself to sleep is too painful, especially since society still has such a stigma against men crying in front of others.

I've trained myself to avoid crying at all costs.

Crypts I hope things get better for you. I'm sorry today is so rough for you.

I just can never cry when my fiance is around. We used to be married at one time. Back then he emotionally n psychologically abused me. Some of it I cant forget. Thats one. So when hes around - I wont let him see me "weak".

Thank you so much. Means a lot. ❤

You must be a genuinely caring person if you would give somebody like that another chance.

I get the impression that you have a high amount of empathy. Maybe that's why I've been enjoying talking to you so much?

Yes. I do. I am actually an empath .. but when I am hurting too badly myself ... I am more just an empathetic person than an empath.

((( Crypts ))) I am fighting a very low state of mind myself these days. I refuse to let people face this kind of thing alone. Connection helps. Keep on talking, as much as you are able.

You as well
❤

It seems like I find myself drawn to empaths, probably because I have such an overwhelming need for somebody to understand me and show me some compassion.

I've probably told you more about myself than intended so far, but I am genuinely grateful that you have been here to talk to me

You can talk to me as much as you want or need to
❤

Crypts, I don't know how many times I've felt like this. Like MisterPain said, if everyone treated people the way people treat people here, the world would be a better place. And I can honestly say that I think my world is a better place because I met you, and so many other kind souls here. Hang in there; you'll feel better, and then I'll feel better cause you feel better.

(((Crypts)))

Thank you.
That means a lot.
❤