If people knew the real you, what would they say?

If people knew the real me and what I suffered with I honestly think they'd be worried I might just go off the deep end at any moment. They would probably also wonder how the hell I've held on for so long.

People would tell me I am one hell of an actor. I hide my real self very well or at least I did until my last manic episode. I left one hell of a debris trail.

I have gotten to the point I no longer try to hide it and if they can't take it - oh well, I probably couldn't take their BS either... so it's all good
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I just let em walk on. It hurts yes. Hurts like the dickens at times - but, keeping it in drove me to SI and attempts more times than I care to think about. So .. l say... "wear it loud, let them go, let it go, carry on" ❤

I know how you feel. We all wear masks. I got so good at it I even managed to hide my feelings from myself, and I didn't realize it until everything spilled out one day and I broke down.

I suppose that would be a rather difficult question to answer. Usually my interests and philosophies are not all that similar to others'-- grandeur, really. Simple and casual was never really my forte. The best assumption I could make is that another person simply would not know what to say to me at all, not necessarily because they did not care, but perhaps because it is not quite that simple.

People would say I'm sweet, shy and reclusive. I isolate because of the illness.

People would say I'm sick and disgusting and need some professional counseling.id laugh and say that's funny cause I'm already in it.then I'd slowly sink to the ground and cry

I don't even know what the "real me" is.. and if I knew, I'd probably hate it.

People do know the real me. I'm loud, extroverted and honest. My friends say I'm eccentric. My non friends say I'm just plain nuts. But I don't know how to hide my issues anyways. It's just not me.

I don't think you should hide them. Be proud of who and what you are. ❤

If people knew the real me....
.... they'd probably ask why I hadn't killed myself yet.

I have some ideas but I don't know if I'd be accurate if I told myself what I think about what others think of me. I might not want to know what others think of me. I may even want to off myself if I was shocked to hear what others think of me if I could hear them talk and they not know that I can hear them. That has happened before.

I feel like, with an honest assessment of myself, I can be a real nice; sweet; genuine person when someone get on the right side of me. But I know that I can be a real jerk if someone gets on the wrong side of me. As far as getting on the wrong side of me is concerned, there are situations where I would hold my cool. Such as at my job and within my immediate neighbors. I think that if I lost it, at where I should hold my cool, then there can be serious ramifications that I would regret.

My 81 year old friend can at times tell me what he sees wrong with me. I don't care to hear about it. Strange how he can not take criticisms about himself very well. The thing that hurts me the most is when he tells me that the other friends that he has are soooo nice; and I am not like them.

For me I want to be real as much as I can. I'd like others to feel that 'what they see is what they get' with me. I don't ever want to be two-faced. I tend to be very nice at work because I like what I do and enjoy the people. I hope they would think of me as nice. At home, it's the opposite of at work.