Need advice

Hi all. So I've recently been thinking to myself about who I am. And how I act. What my feelings are. I've asked my friends to give their input too. I've noticed that I'm either extremely sad (not depressed but sad), which is the majority of the time, or I'm extremely happy. And I can switch between the two very quickly with no trigger to do so. I have no in between, no neutral like most people do. My friends have noticed this when I'm with them, that is when I'm not shutting myself away from everybody, including my family. I'll be really quiet one moment then switch to happy and really talkative, very social. I get points in the day where sometimes when im sad and no one messages me i get even more sad but also points where i dont want anyone to message me at all and ill get irritated very easily if someone does try to. I have tried to commit suicide twice in the past few years, i still have suicidal thoughts but i know i wont ever act upon those thoughts. I want to point out that I'm 19 and my mother is bipolar. Even though I've not been diagnosed with it I do take medication for anxiety and show massive symptoms of it. I just need info as to what it may be? Thanks in advance.

Could whoever is prescribing med for anxiety refer you to someone that you could talk to about the above.

Yeah they could but my problem is where I live there's only one therapist. And I really didn't feel comfortable with him

Do you have a pdoc that could verify a diagnosis or even a family doctor? I'm a little surprised that the doctor who prescribed the anxiety medication didn't recognize that there is something else going on in addition to anxiety.

Yeah I do. I'm going to go see him tomorrow