[KEB1990]

I was dateing this guy who is 42 about 3 months out of a divorce and everything was going great . A couple months in he would always say it was just dateing it would mess with my head . I'm on the austic side and never dated anyone . He would then turn around say how he wanted to hold me kiss me ect then . A couple weeks ago he was added to a chat group I was in it felt like he was ignoring me . His ex wife came back into the picture and he became distant so it brought on a panic attack and I went to the ER . It felt as if no one cared so I left the chat group and started unfriending people. I realized that was a rash choice and apologized but my friend who I confided in told the​ guy I was dateing evething and he went off on me .The next day he said he slept with his ex wife and since then all I've done is cry , I don't sleep more than a couple hours at best in fear of dreaming about him and I keep thinking about what could have been. I'm in hell and having a hard time moving past this. I'm considering therpy but with no insurance it's not easy to do. I'm just needing some support right now and advice.

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. You're not alone and you'll find lots of support on this forum. I encourage you to find a therapist who will work with your budget so you can process these feelings and get some relief. I'm sorry you're hurting so badly. Your ex acted in a less than honorable manner and I'm sorry you were hurt. Thinking of you....

[Rohag]

I'm sorry for what you are going through.

Originally Posted by KEB1990

I don't sleep more than a couple hours at best in fear of dreaming about him and I keep thinking about what could have been.

At a time such as this sleep is critical. It's not a direct way of dealing with the issues, but if you can find ways of getting decent sleep and rest it will assist in creating a psychic environment more conducive to healing.

[KEB1990]

Thanks everyone. It's hard to get any sleep as I live with a controlling sister who won't let anyone sleep and her screaming baby. I called one place hoping to get some kind of therapy and have not heard back yet.