[whisperingskye]

I really hate myself. It's been a while since my self hatred has got this bad but I can't seem to get a handle on it.

I keep doing really ****ing stupid things, and I know I shouldn't do them but I do it anyway. Why can't I just stop myself?

Why do I seem to be doing everything I possibly can to make this worse for myself?

I am a horrible person. A horrible horrible person. I need this to stop.

[Nammu]

I like you Skye, I don't think you're a horrible person.

Can you elaborate on what "stupid" things you are doing?

[Allicatt1]

I already know you are a beautiful person by the simple fact that you took the time to share of yourself. That alone takes courage with your willingness that your post may not only help yourself but others also. It helped me feel that I'm not the only one feeling like this. Thank you

[whisperingskye]

Basically getting into situations with others that I really shouldn't be in. I am using people, or leading them on, at least I'm sure that's how I must be coming across. I should know better and be able to stop myself. I'm a liar too and I can't for the life of me make myself be hosest if someone asks me a real question.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

By "real question" - are you referring to questions regarding things about your personal life - either past or present?

[whisperingskye]

I guess I mean when someone asks me how I am, and not just the general small talk kind of how are you. Or when they start to see things I'm trying to hide and draw their own conclusions and try to get the truth out of me. It is impossible to let my guard down now. It would seem that there is absolutely no one I can trust.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Seems to me that isn't something to hate yourself for - but rather something to ask yourself "what do I fear so much that I need to hide from everyone?" Perhaps answering that will help you resolve you self loathing

[markmcc21]

Self loathing is something I can empathize with. I'm sorry I can't give any sage advice, but I can empathize. I really wish things were better for you!

me too



ETA: Okay wait. I hate ME, too.

Sorry.

I do hope that you're doing a little better today....??

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. I'm also sorry you're experiencing self hatred. I've been there. I don't believe you are a horrible person at all. There are people you can trust (like know where your skeletons are trust). I'm sorry you don't feel that you have anyone to trust right now. I hope you start feeling better about yourself soon. Best wishes.

Originally Posted by whisperingskye

Basically getting into situations with others that I really shouldn't be in. I am using people, or leading them on, at least I'm sure that's how I must be coming across. I should know better and be able to stop myself. I'm a liar too and I can't for the life of me make myself be hosest if someone asks me a real question.

It sounds like you are quite self-aware, which is a good first step. Many people never get this insight and you're already there! Now it's time to think about why you engage in these behaviours, and what you can do to change any unhealthy ones. A therapist would be very helpful for this.

It sounds like you don't hate yourself, but rather the things you do. There is still time to change your actions.

[MtnTime2896]

You've always been a good friend to me. I'm here whenever you feel up to talking.

[whisperingskye]

Thanks for all the support, you people are awesome

I think I'm over tired today, maybe this whole week and that probably isn't helping.

I feel very stuck right now with every aspect of my life and how I am.

[FeelingHopeful]

Me too.😥, Feel better soon ❤

[MickeyCheeky]

You're not a horrible person at all.. I'm sorry you have this opinion about yourself Hope you'll start to feel better soon.