The Shadow World

Sorry to feel that. Sorry that I just responded, been too busy and tired lately.

The worlds in my head are still rotating. Tim is can't present at the moment. I don't know why my head can't but I know he's not dead. Just disappear for a moment replaced by 2 persons.

Its ok, its a long time ago made realization. Just sometimes I seem to transport into those wretched moments...

Zombie Tinkerbell

Slept over the anxiety this afternoon. Im better now, but my messed up sleep pattern is additionally messed up.

Its cloudy outside.

My mind is wandering in some long forgotten stone ages...

-arcturus

...its all too much to take in:

Linkin Park Singer Chester Bennington Dead, Commits Suicide by Hanging | TMZ.com

Just hear about it too. Linkin Park is one of my favorite bands. A few bands which the live better than album version.

Now Linkin Park will never been the same without Chester.

RIP Chester.

The Harvest:

pretty girl with drum cover:



I've been crawling on my belly
Clearing out what could've been
I've been wallowing in my own confused
And insecure delusions...

Banned TED talk - DMT the war on consciousness:

"Eternal suffering.
Everlasting oblivion of tears falling into the dust.
I want to die.
But the three mothers don't grip my hand
they want the cycle to be completed.

I'm walking through this autumnal mist
where everything dies
and where everything is anguish and loneliness.
I mortify my heart with love's pain
and fall into the hollow deep abyss."

...another one covering tool:

...hammer smashed face cover:

orders from the dead:

dreamy and surreal

I read this like ages ago, so now I just jump to a random paragraph. Honestly I dont remember a thing about it but I seem to understand, more or less, random jumps.

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That gif quite give me an unsettling mood.

Thanks for the book, read a little and quite interesting. It makes me remember that these days I do have dreams, but can't remember anything after waking up. I guess I'm too tired. It makes me remember about my friends whose dreams are sometimes premonition.

Those are real things, not like fictional story ideas that I wrote earlier in this/old threads

All dreams have a kind of real thing about them. Who knows what kind of reality are we communicating during dreaming.

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Theres even a how to on daydreaming:

How to Daydream: 12 Steps (with Pictures) - wikiHow

I would need a how to on get back to reality. But I think thats impossible for me, for tons of reasons.

A Collection of Dream Stories: Explore or Share Your Own

^ I don't need daydreaming tutorial. I do that everyday, when walking, doing boring task, listening to boring conversation, and mostly before sleeping. That's how I make 5 worlds in my head.

At one point, I think I'm going crazy because I almost can't see the lines between reality and fantasy.

Actually dreams are about things we know or fear is true , we never have to wonder about our samity when it comes to dreams. I have major sleep disorders and see one of the best sleep pathologist researchers in the country, so I know a lot about sleep and it's architecture and what influences drugs have on our sleep and dreams.

I dont believe in sleep experts, we know less about dreams then the physics of life itself.

Maybe each persons life experience determines their dreams?

My dreams are loaded with symbolism I work with daily. And dreams are symbolic in themselves so its a nice harmony between the worlds.

And my nightmares are mostly teenage figures representing fears in the now.

And I have a strong feeling that dreams are another form of reality. Thats how I see it all.

I don't know. I do not really believe dreams are always have meanings. Sorry for that.

When I can't remember my dreams (like now) that's because I'm too tired with the day activities or the dream is meaningless.

When I remember dreams, mostly it is because they're too exciting and weird. I remember the weirdest dream was become inanimate object. I was a sunken ship, in a very deep sea but funny thing is I can see through the darkness. I was surrounded by countless underwater creatures from a tiny blob through very massive fish like whale.
Sometimes, I dream becoming boys multiple times, from a black kid through very attractive man.

The most exciting are the dreams involving those 5 worlds. Honestly, 3 of 5 worlds are created from dreams and developed in my daydreams.

My nightmares are came from RL stress or my fear with ghost/monster. This type is I believe has meaning. The rest, I don't think they have.