[Psychotic_Phil]

I'm having invasive thoughts about the dreaded S word. I feel like I have no purpose in life. I will never become the writer I hoped I would be. I'm worthless. If I were bipolar or had chronic depressive episodes I could. But I'm schizophrenic. I will fail. Every psychiatrist except my idiot doctor says so. My doctor is such an idiot. I'd just like to %#@&#! punch him in his face. He acts like his %#@&#! doesn't stink but I can see that he's a liar. He's a stupid liar and he's been caught by me. I hope life takes me out. I don't like this life. All my dreams and hopes are gone.

[Perna]

Don't get ahead of yourself Phil, you can't know what you will become in the future. If you keep "practicing", keep writing, there's no telling what you will become. No need to be "famous" -- you're a "Writer", that's all there is. You have to write and you write. I don't have schizophrenia so what's my "excuse"? Keep pulling yourself along, writing. You've been "here" with these feelings before, you'll probably be here again.

Hard when we're disappointed in the people helping us. I got a new doctor and he's not turning out to be too good. Hands me a flier about any condition he mentions like I don't know more about any condition I have and how it affects me than he does and need to read some brochure written by a drug company!

[Fuzzybear]

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