[Elle22]

Today my other half told me his is not cancelling the house we planned to buy together...i feel as if i borderline begged him not to...as this house and its improvements have been helping me in looking forward on my low days..i repeatedly pointed that out...i think hes finally getting and understanding the highs and lows of my meds taking effect...i just want this rough week to be over with...my doc tells me that it will take about a month or so, its been that now, and that ill experience high and lows before i plane out, which is apparently where i am right now...ive been okay the past day in a half...but im deathly afraid of another anxious breakdown happening and setting him off the edge...his reason for saying he didnt want the house was because he couldnt afford it on his own if we split up...he never thought of this until this past week when ive had my worst episode ever...it feels like hes already planning for us not to work? why be with me anyway...