[Fuzzybear]

Please, this is not meant in a negative sense to anyone here.

It's good to know that citalopram and paroxetine have been found to be effective for adult depresssion.

I was prescribed paroxetine on the NHS with VERY little follow up "support".

At that point I was not suicidal. And I was not lacking in "insight"

The "support" I received was from a pdoc who told me that "talking doesn't help some people" and that there was "no point" in seeing him more than once every 3 months for 15 minutes

On reflection, I guess I "should" have been grateful he even offered me that 15 minutes as apart from a few very unhelpful comments he was quite good at listening and had a kind manner.... within the 15 minutes I was allowed :head spin:

However I felt disrespected by his saying there was "no point"

I had been told I "didn't matter" by too many abusers -!:

And I do believe that feeling that "I don't matter" is a symptom of Depression

Please do forgive my "selfishness" in this long rant. And please do forgive me if I bore anyone

Cut.

I have been suicidally depressed now for around 4 years and I am now allergic to ALL the antidepressants and antipsychotics I've been prescribed

So yeah... if I had been more "intelligent" I would have refused the paroxetine when I was not suicidally depressed.

Thank you for reading my "boring" rant

[JessHarpGirl]

The problem with a lot of Western medicine, is that they do not tell us what the side effects are, or they boil them down to sound like their nothing. Or that they're very rare. I've been on a gluten-free diet for almost the last three years, and I have not had any suicidal thoughts in over two years. I still have some issues, but my depression has gotten much better. I haven't even been to a psych unit for 2 1/2 years. Before that I was going at least once or twice a year.

[whisperingskye]

Wish I knew what to say. It's not fair at all.

((((((Fuzzybear))))))

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry this has been your experience. Sending big hugs.

[littleblackdog]

You do matter, and you should never be told that there is no point. He may not have been able to do much more to help you but if talking to someone even for 15 minutes helps then there is a point.
Also, taking the medication that you were prescribed was not unintelligent. The reason that these drugs are prescribed is because they work. Unfortunately, given the nature of mental illness, they do not work for everyone. I am now on my 7th AD and none of them have helped my mood at all, but all have had varying side-effects which just end up making me feel worse and my pdoc seems to have no idea what to do other than just trying a different tablet each time.

I am also stuck in the NHS system and understand how frustrating it is to get any help with the different referrals and then waiting lists you are just left in limbo for so much of the time.

[MtnTime2896]

I'm sorry you've been through so much, Fuzzy. I'm familiar with the feeling of being suicidally depressed for years on end. What that pdoc said, it's bu11sh!t.

For you, talking is what you need to do to get past all the trauma you endured. You deserve and have a right to proper treatment. You are worth just as much as the next guy. Hell, to me you're worth a lot.

If you ever need to talk, I'm only a PM away.