Am I really depressed or just have a bad attitude towards life ?

Thank you for the support Crypts_Of_The_Mind. It means a lot.

Not sure I quite get this. What do you mean when you say either or?

I am totally on the fact that I have been in this cycle for too long, which is why I sought professional help in the first place after all this time.

However, where I live in the UK, it appears I don't meet the criteria (or my symptoms aren't bad enough) for my GP to make a referral to psychiatry.

I am now going to take up a private appointment, just haven't done it still.

I believe Nammu is referring to the question you pose in the title of this post "Am I really depressed or just have a bad attitude towards life?" and saying it could be both rather than just one or the other - then offering a possible solution.

Ah ok, thanks for clarifying, got it now.