Hurting

I don’t know what exactly to say other than I’m hurting. I’d like to think that I’m intelligent, but it’s evident I’m not. If I were, I would be able to take social cues and vague hints instead of having to basically have it directly fed to me like I’m an idiot. If I were intelligent I wouldn’t be in so much debt.

I hurt physically. I have had this respiratory issue that won’t go away & I don’t know what the source is. I need to find out soon before I sink even more $$ into getting better (even with pretty good insurance).

I hurt emotionally. I’ve been searching for that elusive love that I believe is never meant for me. I feel like I’ve been put on earth to be kicked around. I’m 35 and have never even come close to any sex or love. If one half of people think I’m a disease and the other half think I’d be a potential Nazi or mass shooter, I wonder if it matters what I really am.

I know to most it’s no big deal, just take it. Well for me it is. Sorry to bother you with this rant, but it’s so much I can take before I scream.

I’m glad you posted. I’m sorry you are having a tough time.

Wish I could take the pain away. Praying for you.