I’m not sure what to do with myself in the first week of January. Both of my jobs are on holiday break so unless I get called in to work a different program I won’t have work. Work is almost my only social outlet. I was supposed to go on a trip during that time but I was disinvited. I’m pretty sure being alone that long with no structured things to do (as in work) is going to kill me. Maybe not literally, but it’ll kill my spirit.

I don’t know what to do with myself. Just sleep a week? I don’t have friends and I’m not a big fan of doing things by myself. I don’t usually want to do the thing, I just want to be around people. I don’t have a lot of people I feel comfortable doing stuff with though so I won’t have anyone that week I guess.

[FallDuskTrain]

One week might go faster than you think.
I am sorry that you feel panicked.
Do you like to read or listening to podcasts? Can you clean around while you do it?
Solitude can be a blessing at times. Again, it is easier for me to say as I have a very tough time being around people. But, again I understand as I need my work for routine setting and social interaction purposes.

I can get depressed being home alone for just a day or so. I have a very hard time around people a lot of the time too, but I have a worse time alone.

Part of it is that I'm hurt that I got uninvited but I deserved it 100% so I guess I can't complain. I feel like I'm being abandoned and punished.