[kanna]

So i just insulted my counsellor after he argue with me (not even directly he made a woman idk tell me) that even thought after i changed my last appointment (i only had one so far) and we both agreed on a time and date, he claimed i didnt make an appointment and send me home, since i didnt get to speak to him myself, i wrote him an very insulting email later, which i not gonna show at this point as its need quite a bit of explanation.

2. I live as german person in Thailand, its my home i grew up here (came here with 13, now 20 ) but i couldnt learn thai very well, only kinda understanding it, and while here in Thailand any proffesional help is allready rare, finding a place that speaks english and is payable is basicly impossible.

I do not like to share my personal story, maybe its easyest to say i dont know a time in my life without depression, anyways.

This is part of what the letter said:
"I quit the counseling, no further interest in it.

if from picture attached thats no appointment, i dont know what is.

If you dont want to help me beacus im a ******* just say it, no need to give me false hope im gonna get some kind of help.

wouldnt be suprised if you called my parents or even informed the police.

Thanks for nothing, i hope you ****ing die and see you in hell."

This is what i wrote him, he knows that i have been suicidal for most of my life, and still am, and now im worryed after i typed this that he will contact people, or im just not sure what he will do now

and even if he does nothing, what should i now ? this counseling was in my university, it only opend recently and it was the only place i was able to go, now i cant go anywhere...

[Skeezyks]

Hello kanna: I'm sorry you've had this difficult experience. From what you wrote it does sound as if you've kind-of burned your bridges with this counselor. Not knowing more about your situation, I doubt there is much I can offer in the way of suggestions.

If this counselor is a true professional he should understand you are struggling & be willing to see you despite the nasty e-mail you sent. Perhaps, if you feel you can, you might try re-contacting him, apologize, & see if he will do so. Otherwise I'm afraid you're left with only the option of trying to find someone else. On-line counseling might be one alternative if you can afford it. I've never done it myself; so I can't really say anything about it positive or negative.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit. May I suggest you introduce yourself over on PC's New Member Introductions forum? Here's a link:

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