[Saunder]

I barely leave my apartment. Trying not to end up in hospital again. Would love to be able to take care of my girrfriend who is one of the sweetest people in the whole world. Can't help my 28 yr. old son who lives in the garage at his mom's. Severe drug problem. Tried to get him to go with his mom and me to get help but never makes the follow-up appt. I Used to go to depression group twice a week thru med. plan but after last severe depression started talking about myself more and stopped attending. Never have been a strong person, 65 now.When I was feeling better guess I was kidding myself. Just a matter of time before depression would come back. I pray that my girlfriend, son and his mom can feel good again. I'm so pathetic that I pray to die in my sleep naturally. I'm a coward. Guess I always have been. Sorry this is so long. I have had friends in the past but never seem to keep them. Probably don't deserve them. If I go to get help again, I'll probably end up in hospital. Not suicidal but usually say too much where I seem to be. Hope you all start feeling better and or continue feeling better. Nice to have a place where people can share their feelings My girlfriend unfortunately hears my crap over and over. So far she still wants me to stay with her. I guess I really don't deserve anything more. She really is an a angel. Everyone, please take care.

I can see someone who really wants to care for others, and tried so hard to no avail.
Understand that while your son has a drug problem, he's his own person now and needs to take his own responsibility. I know what it means to care for your son, but you can at least be proud he's making his own choices independently, even if they could be wrong for them.
Yes, I know you care for your son and wouldn't want to let him go like that, but it's his choice and as you can see there's a limit to how much you can help. You have to help yourself first.

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. All you can do is the best you can. I hope things improve.

[Teddy Bear]

Sorry your feeling down I too have wished I'd die in my sleep but things sometimes get better

[Saunder]

Thank you all for responding. Take care,

[Sunflower123]

I’m sorry you are having such a tough time. I’m struggling in a few areas myself due to depression. It’s hard. Hang in there, take good care of yourself and keep posting so we can support you. I’m here if you need to talk. Sending big hugs.