[skitsnigel]

Earlier this year I went to see a medical practitioner about fatigue. Reason for this was that my counsellor at the time was more focused on helping my anxiety than to notice what I feel might have been the cause all along.
Now, bear with me. For a long time on and off I have had periods of meh, the type of meh where you don't want to do anything because there's no point or I'm no good and other disturbing dark thoughts (at the time they seem stangely good), the type where I isolate myself and can't focus on hobbies or friends and struggle to get out of bed, the kind I strongly associate with depression.
I'm not talking months here, I'm talking years. I don't know how much longer I'll have the energy to push through. I work in a different country than the one I can get healthcare in easily, and I'm going back to work on Saturday for another 6 months or so.
This winter the doctor took some blood tests and ruled out any physical reason for my fatigue.

So now I am almost certain I suffer with some type of depression that affects me in my work and free time more often than not.
So what do I do?
I have run out of time to talk to a counsellor in my home country.
How am I to push through with this for 6 months when I could barely handle 4 this autumn?

If it's of any help to those amazing enough to want to offer advice, I am an EU citizen working in Scotland, so it would not be very helpful with American services and the likes. Thank you!

[pegasus]

I really think that your health is more important than your job. Please consider getting the health care in your own country, take the time to sort out medication at least. Your health matters.

[skitsnigel]

Originally Posted by pegasus

I really think that your health is more important than your job. Please consider getting the health care in your own country, take the time to sort out medication at least. Your health matters.

I have considered that a lot, but since I'm working for a family who have treated me very well I would be kicking and hating myself if I let them down when they need me to care for their kids during the day.

Thank you though for your honest and caring response