[Hazelgreen]

I feel like a loser. I sit at home and ruminate about my life. I constantly think about SI. I wonder why I even exist. I produce no happiness in the world. I don’t know why I am this way, but I feel like I am a waste. It sounds pathetic and I know others have it worse than I, so why can’t I just get over it?

You're not a loser. You are not a waste. Depression doesn't care if other people have it worse. You can't just get over it. Depression is telling you lies and it is very hard, but you need to not listen. If you haven't, see a doctor.

[Wild Coyote]

I have had very similar thinking/feelings today. It's been a rough day.

It would be nice if we could just reason our way out of depression; yet, we cannot. Depression has a hold we cannot explain away.

Do you see a pdoc/therapist?
Do you take meds?
Have you tried CBT and/or DBT?

None of the above guarantees you won't suffer with depression; yet, sometimes some of the above options can be helpful.

Please be kind to yourself.


WC