Anyone here???

Just wish i didn't exist. Seems like i'll never find a freaking job. I really hate myself. I've been abused and bullied. And a worthless, useless, ugly girl.
My depression and anxiety will never get better
All i ever wanted is to love and be loved. Guess i don't deserve that either.

We’re here.....

Hello & Welcome, Walexy.

I'm just guessing - is it possible that this:
is related to your feelings of worthlessness?

Please make yourself at home here.

Inspite of all you mentioned, you are strong enough, persistent enough, wise enough, hopeful enough to have overcome other peoples attempt to keep you down. You are awesome.

We are always here to listen. Depression is nasty because it makes you feel like it will never get better, but it will. Talk through your feelings and know that you are not alone.

Jobs have changed. Gone are the days when people would have one job and keep it for the rest of their lives. People aren't defined so much by their jobs. It's not unusual for people to have 2, 3 , 4 jobs or ways of making money. The old question 'What do you do'? isn't relevant anymore. The answer now is ' I do all sorts of things.' So don't beat yourself up over not being able to get a job.
You have to be proactive and think 'what do I like doing'? what am I good at'? How can I make money by doing ..... whatever.?
You can't change the past but accept it, come to terms with it, forgive yourself and other people and move on. I know personally it's not easy but it's the only way.
Depression makes you feel useless, worthless, unwanted but it's only your thinking makes it so. The reality is that you're none of those.