[Onward2wards]

It is sometimes very hard to properly convey what I want to say. I'm just having a really hard time these days and fed up with things in general.

I feel like something fundamental inside is gone or broken. A part of what makes me "me", has been discontinued. It doesn't hurt, it isn't scary or disorientating, it's just ... "nobody home" you know? Complete passivity. Resignation. I want to care and I can't bring myself to express it properly.

Sometimes you think "Life, seriously, can you get worse?" and it says, "Hold my beer ..." and then one day you just stop caring anymore.

[FallDuskTrain]

I hear you O2. I feel very similar actually. I cannot stop being hurt by the inconsiderate and awful things people do. Every single day; but it is my problem. I cannot control people and as long as I wish that they were different, I am going to continue suffering.
I try to remind myself that not everyone is a sheep of society and that there are kind hearted people who actually are wise enough to know that life is about getting ahead, or making lots of money, or having power or winning or preaching your view on others and criticizing others for being different. Life does go much deeper than that. It is about being able to love and expand our hearts. It is about giving without expecting and loving without fear. It is about accepting those who are different than us and work to find a common ground. Life is about becoming a wiser, loving, caring and a more humble person
I am here if you want to chat in private.