[LivingInDarkness]

I feel like I put on a completely different face when I am with other people.
I laugh when people tell jokes and say "Hi" in the morning, but under that surface I feel terrible.
I am just starting to identify as having depression and I just wondered if this is normal. I feel like I am trying to cover it up to others.

Feeling lost like always.

[Wild Coyote]

Hi and welcome!

I can relate, I smile a lot and those around me likely do not know the depth of my depression. I "mask" my depression because I feel more comfortable that way. I feel like my depression can become a burden to others. The problem with doing this is others don't give support because they never know support is needed.

I hope to see you around the forums.

WC

[Wilderleaf]

It's normal for me at least. I'm not sure what the underlying reason is for hiding so tenaciously. I have an online friend I sometimes talk to about it, and they helped me to start seeing a therapist, but other than that I haven't said a word to anyone. I've sorta fantasized about opening up to my sister or parents about it, but haven't managed yet, and just keep covering it up. At least part of it is like Wild Coyote said, it makes me feel like a burden, like I should be able to fix it myself since it's not physical, just get a proper mindset and everything will be fine. I think talking about it some has been helpful, but it's still a struggle not wanting to burden the friend I already talk to about it. You've made a good step in coming here, I wish I'd been more persistent and open on the forum myself, the people here are very supportive. Maybe it can help you find some light.

[cool09]

People with depression put on faces. I could never learn to do that. Hope you get better.

[Candy1955]

I do this most of the day.
It's like necessary, have pretty important job.
When i get home I just crawl in bed. best part of the day.

[Shancan]

I do at work. And actually find it helps. Even if my smile and laugh is very superficial, it is better than what I feel after. Sometimes my coworkers catch me looking very depressed and I just tell them I have a migraine (even if I don’t). But for me going to work is what helps me get through my day, my life. Because once I slow down, and if I am depressed, it sinks right in.